The Rainbow Swallow--------Letting go....

The rainbow swallow
By Teddy Teo

There’s a pet shop located just round the corner of my apartment block and everyday on my way to work, I never fail to pass by the shop where varieties of cute little things were sold. I never had the intention to own a pet so I never did notice or take a closer look into the shop before.

Then one fine day, while on the way to work as usual, something bright and colorful caught my eye when I passed by the pet shop. Curious, I took a closer look and a rainbow colored swallow appeared before my very eyes. I was amazed and fascinated by it beauty as I stared at it while it spread its wings displaying a wide array of colors and while still looking at it, I asked the shop owner whom without even finish hearing what I said, shouted rudely: “ no, that bird is not for sale”. Disappointed, I walked away with my eyes taking a last glance at the colorful creature.

Everyday when I go to and return from work, I would walk into the shop and look at the swallow and try to persuade the shop owner to sell me the swallow. But to my dismay, the answer was always negative. Hence I could only hope on and pray that someday the shop owner would change his mind. Day after day, the same routine would take place and day by day, I noticed that the color on the swallow was getting duller and duller, losing all its brightness and hue. It made me sad and I became more persistent as I can see in the swallow’s eye that it not happy encaged within metal sticks. And finally, one fine day, the shop owner who couldn’t stand me irritating him everyday any longer, agreed to my request.

I was overwhelmed and took the swallow home immediately, hoping to see its color recover to its original brightness. But to my disappointment, as days go by, nothing improved and finally one day, defying my sense of unwillingness, I set the swallow free. It flew out of the cage, stood on the window ledge and soon enough, its color recovered to almost what I had seen when I first saw it. And eventually after a few minutes, it took off into the blue sky.

Deep in my heart, I thought: Fly Swallow, Fly,
Fly to the sky so blue and high,
Were u meant to be mine?
If so, this wont be goodbye.

Tear drop trickled down as the thought come and go, I have to learn to let go. As, if things were meant to be mine, they will come back to me.


I was naive, to think that if i give my all, i would receive something. Naive, to think that wat goes ard, comes ard which was never the case. Y is that so? The world's never always fair or can i say its never fair? Although i never expect any returns of any kind, am still disappointed of how this world works. Although i cant confirm that she's attached, I've decided to let go. If this phrase," Let go, if things were meant to be yours, they will come back to u", is true, then i guess time will tell. I hope that i have grown, grown enuff to not repeat the same thing again as there is a limit of how much i can give and also, i found out that my patience wasn't really that everlasting. Although she never rejected me straight in the face, and i'm still open to any facts, there is no guarantee that i will accept wat i've long to receive, if things do come ard. As i've did it before, " hao mah bu chi hue tou chow", i will only look back but will never go backwards. As the feeling will be different by then.

Yan, i dont blame u, neither do i blame anyone. Instead, i like to thank u for enlightening me and letting me know the cruel facts of life. Life's never easy and certain things we have to learn to let go. I was naive and stupid, and i hope that i had grown up. Although i've let go, i am still clinging on to the least of hope.....waiting for the answer of whether u were, by any chance, meant to be mine.

Cheers,
Teddy