TEDDY's Bloogie

HongKong trip

2006-11-14T21:54:00.000+07:00

am i too choosey?

2006-01-21T22:00:00.000+07:00

My colleagues will, from time to time, keep asking me why am i still not attached and offer to intro friends and relatives to me. Then keep saying that i am very choosey leading to the reason why i am still single. However, that not true lor, i'm not the choosey one, my expectation of a GF is actually quite simple. its the gals nowadays whose choosey. Hate to admit it but thats the world now. Gals are not as demure as the past, not as reserved. Compared to gals in our mother's time, characteristics of females species had evolved quite a fair bit. However, this theory does not apply across the board, there are still some exceptions though. Back to a slice of my life, been seeing quite a number of frens getting married and having children, they are making me quite worried actually as to whether i will be able to find someone, get married and set up my own family. Had been seeing a lot of gals my age, if not younger, already having babies.

Haiz, if really you were to look at the gals i liked before, you wont say i am choosey lor. But please dun intro gals to me, as part of my heart is not there anymore, hope the rainbow swallow finds it way back soon. :)

Best Newcomer of the year??

2005-11-23T19:12:00.000+07:00

JOS DnD 2005 (con't)

2005-11-19T16:34:00.000+07:00

JOS DnD 2005 (con't)

2005-11-19T16:13:00.000+07:00

JOS DnD 2005

2005-11-19T15:23:00.000+07:00

moving along

2005-10-22T01:10:00.000+07:00

Life's been pretty kind to me, all had been smooth sailing so far. My job had been satisfying and start to really see the kick of getting commission every month, family wise been well and circle of friends widening. Another secondary friend jus got married, wondering whose next. Colleagues had been really good to me and so far, every aspect of life had been pretty well maintained except for financial wise, still pretty weak and also love life la, can say 0, zero, 零，kosong. Well, i dun know why also, dun ask me, ask everyone else except me.

Watched the 40 year old virgin recently and was wondering if i would turn out like that. Hopefully not la, anyway its nothing to be ashame of being one la jus that sometimes i feel like u know, 24 yrs old liow and didnt even stepped into a relationship before. People thinking whether i am gay but i can guarantee that i am still attracted to females. Talking to my secondary school pals lately and they had been touching on this topic and asking me whether i need their help in getting a gal jus like the plot in the movie and was thinking, i hope not. Well, maybe i dun really have the charm or something la. Anyway, dun think its important now at this stage of my life, career and financial status is still priority now. Everything can come later i guess. Anyone begs to differ?

guess thats all i have to update in my blog for now. nothing much to say also. hopefully my commission will get more and more and find someone soon lor and also waiting for that someone. that particular one who had been appearing in my dreams....haha.

Cheers,
Teddy

人生

2005-09-22T23:57:00.000+07:00

常常在想，人生到底是什么？
我为什么而活，到底人生有什么义意？
从早忙到晚，就为了赚钱，为了生存。
一直在想，到底还有什么可以让我继续冲刺？

Life As it is

2005-09-19T00:02:00.000+07:00

Its getting more and more hectic in my work, glad that its this way cos in job wise, i am getting somewhere. emotionally, i wont have time to think so much. Its like i wish i have more time for myself kind of thing. Always looking forward to weekends where i can get to rest more. Not that i dun like my job, jus that its getting too hectic and taking up too much of my time, but i guess its good as i am still young and do not have any commitment as yet.

Joined Party world's "be a star 2005" and get eliminated in the quarter finals, well, think i am jus not good enuff. But of cos, i wont give up joining such competitions as a result of this event. Treat it as an experience ba. Anyway, its over liow, no point thinking to much about it, at least i got thru the audition.... haha.

Had a great mid autumn festival eve, wnet to labrador park with yan for voluntary work. although it was nothing like i thought, its quite tiring. really enjoy being around yan cos you never know when is the next stupid comment gonna come out from her. Well, she is still my rainbow swallow....haha!! cute as ever. I did not drive as my sis have to use the car, so i went over to her home and went over to labrador in her car, and we were an hour late. Its partly my fault cos i reached her house quite late and its partly her fault also cos she came down so late..... anyway, she looked quite moody thruout the evening and i didnt bother to ask her wat's wrong. Was thinking i shouldnt ask so much. Seems like there is so much things in her mind, i really dun mind sharing her problems, provided she share with me. really dun like to see her like that. Hope she's feeling fine now. Sometimes i wonder, how can anyone treat her badly in this world?? if i were to know about anyone who does that, promise i will do something to that person.

It seems like i still have feeling for her huh? well, i will be lying if i say no. I do, but i am not going to do anything about it i guess cos she is still attached if i am not wrong and i really wanna concentrate on my work now. believe wat's mine will be mine someday. Wishing her all the best for now and she will be happy always.

Cheers,
Teddy

Finally....

2005-09-08T23:01:00.000+07:00

After few months of unconnected life, my broadbandf connection is finally up again. Stupid Singnet have this promo for 256Kbps users giving them free upgrade to 512kbps....and price i pay is like $57.75 per month. Wanted to upgrade my plan long ago but my contract was not up yet so have to wait. Recently went to the PC show at suntec and saw the promo for 1500Kbps at $58, 36mths contract and they giving out free wireless modem with integrated router, $40 taka voucher and also a sony PSP that comes with two games..... Shiok, so i went for it. Long wanted to do this and luckily picked the right time. Well, not a bad deal la even though the last promo they gave out apple ibook....

Hmmmm....been pretty quiet lately huh....where had everyone gone to??

Cheers!! Keep life busy rite?!!

Cool place

2005-07-03T21:52:00.000+07:00

Hi all, like to introduce a newly open place which i feel its a super nice and cool place. Its called Liquid Kitchen, a pub that serves all kind of drinks and food also. Drinks price are quite reasonable and above all, its just opp my house....haha. i'm now here typing this blog. Very comfortable place with wireless internet access with no extra charges. and no, its not my laptop, its a loan set from Lenovo. anyway, this place is jus opp Thomson Community Club, beside a shell petrol kiosk. Well, if one fine day you decided to try out this place, please give me a call, i might be at home doing nothing and will be glad to come grab a beer or two. Erdinger?? I'm not trying to promote this place or wat, jus want to intro this cool place to you guys. Thats all folks, remember to give me a call huh!! ;)

Super fun sat

2005-06-19T21:23:00.000+07:00

Haiz.... Home PC down, HDD crashed so now can onli use notebook from office and worse thing is this set is meant for SMU for demo. Now tapping on my kind neighbour's wireless network and surfing for free. haha....bo pian, ppl stupid dun know how to secure their network so cannot blame me hor, Anyway they are jus being kind i guess. think i can jus terminate my broadband account and invest on a wireless network card instead. Sounds more feasible huh....hahaha EVIL....

Anyway, i had a super wonderful and fun saturday yesterday on the 18/06/05, participated in a car rally expedition thingy organised by IBM and SIS. I didnt feel like participating initially but the sales rep from SIS came to our office and asked us to join so i just sort of like entertain and joined the event, never expecting it to be so fun.

Its not a race, nothing like a race but its something like amazing race. We gathered at a big carpark opp delta house jus beside gan eng seng school, registered and were given IBM stickers and decals to stick on my BLACK LANCER. I joined the event with another two of my colleague, Joel and Velene. there was another team from my company also and they were an all gal team from the commercial sales team and when i saw their car, i couldnt believe my eyes, as there was a best dress car contest for $500, they decorated their until like malay wedding of hari raya lor.... a bit pai say to be in the same company as them that very day.....

oh yah, the top prize for the race was $1500, followed by $1000 and $500. i told velene and joel that we have to get the top prize no matter wat as we were all out of money liow. anyway back to the race, we decorated the car and an IBMer was assigned to be attached with my team. A cute gal called Shu Yin from IBM, haha happy like fuck lor.....got two cute gals in my car, dun mind anything liow....now u know why i enjoyed myself that much that day?? haha

the race started with a mission to unscrew one tire nut and show it to the marshaller to get the clue to the next checkpoint, did that without much effort and had to borrow the nut to my other colleague cos they cant find their nut wrench. Sometimes i wonder, wat else do women know besides shopping? anyway, the first location clue was pretty easy, CLUE1: name after a breed of DOG.....instantly, i shouted labrador park.....too easy lah....headd there and follow the car in front into the wrong carpark and i was smart as i knew there were two carpark at labrador park and after seeing so many participant loitering ard there, i immediately know that its at the other carpark and was i right or was i right...clever clever me.

we were handed a 10 questions questionaire and were suppose to run around the park looking for answers. and cos of our speed and intelligence ( the two gals were not bimbo la), we finished first and headed to the next location immediately which is over at clarke quay. its actually not the speed that counts, its the number of questions you answered correctly.

We were the first to reach clarke quay and there was a break as we reach there too fast haha....after that, we were asked to put together a jigsaw puzzle and answer the question on it and get a stamp and proceed to clarke quay riverside where we were given another questionaire and started searching for answer and after the questions, driver drives the car over to UOB building and the rest of the team take the river taxi over where on it they have to do certain task to complete yet another questionaire....heng i drive ah but also sad that i miss the boat ride cos i had never been on it before, wat a waste....

after that, on to the next destination which is macdonald next to west coast park. Very nice place which i didnt know existed. its basically heaven for kids i can say.
the whole team have to climb up the spider web thingy and touch the top of the highest point in order to proceed. and we reached there quite late due to the fact that we finish the clarke quay questionaire very late. so have to wait for the teams whom reached there first lor, we had nothing to do and went to play the flying fox thingy at the children play park.....haha, like over grown kids like that.... but we had fun and finally its our turn to climb the thing. we were not bad, all very sporting and flexible and of cos for me no problem at all lah, at least cannot lose face in front of cute gals rite??? completed it and given another set of questionaire again and this time its questions on IBM products and bad thing is i am only familiar with thinkpad and there were questions regarding IBM servers and Storage.....we finished the questionaires nevertheless and proceeded to the diner destination which is nearby, Republic of Singapore Yatch Club. Nice club and the dinner was buffet and before the prize presentation, there were games which had me twice carrying velene.....KNS, i big size then always kena this kind of shit job but joel was worse, he had to take off his top and kiss another man.....his task even more shit. anyway we didnt win anything except a washing board but we really had fun. After the dinner, i sent everyone home as we all lived nearby. with that, a fantastic and funtastic sat ended and was very glad to know Shu Yin, the cute pretty gal from IBM Client team GSMB. very fruitful sat indeed.

Hope to have this kind of activities more often and i will try to get some photos from the organiser and try to post them online. in the meanwhile, Take care and Cheers!!!

Regards,
Teddy

headlesschickentravels.blogspot.com

2005-06-03T23:44:00.000+07:00

Jus finished reading my Poly mate's blog which he created to log down his lone venture for a backpacking trip to northern thailand. Was really really impress by his deed and make me feel that life is not just trying to earn money and go after material needs. Makes me really feels like doing that too. He went for three weeks and only spent $700 in total, Incredible!!!

I really wonder when i will have the chance to do the things i really bream of doing, travelling is one of them and another is to open a Jazz pub/lounge. Dream on you might say, well, i'm a pisces, a dreamer.....

Been really really busy recently with work and RT, however, feels better as you wont tend to think too much every other things and make your day much more fulfilling too. All those things about love and relationships and all had been driving me nuts, especially after vi rejected me. Well, history repeated itself, no doubt. Maybe i'm just fated to be lonely.

I think i will start saving up for a backpacking trip to somewhere while i'm still young and healthy. Wont want to regret after i am more tied down by commitments. Anyone wanna join me? suggest a place, hopefully somewhere cooler cos asia is jus too damn bloody warm.

well, thats it.....dun forget to let me in if you have any backpacking ideas, but make sure its plan well before time as i need to save up and plan to take leave from work if it were to be implemented.

Take care Folks,

Cheers,
Teddy

Crazy KTV session with colleagues

2005-03-29T21:12:00.000+07:00

Last thursday, good friday eve, our company Jardine OneSolution (2001) Pte Ltd had an annual biz launch at Oriental hotel. Following that, we headed to Party World at shenton for a crazy nite. Here are some of the pics taken. Enjoy!!

me and my manager, Elsbeth

me, Hengkee, Joel and half of sally

Very cramp til need to stand up

yo wassup??

wat kind of expression is that?

gui ah!!! gui!!!!

happily singing away

The final Countdown!!!!

2005-03-20T21:35:00.000+07:00

Thats it, 24hrs more before i get to see her. Dun really know the exact time but it should be ard this time tomolo nite. In the meanwhile, waiting for her call and maybe go read The Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom. Pretty good book which got me hooked. I can say books like that are hard to come by and books that can get me hooked are even harder to come by. So i suggest, consider picking up the book in any major book store (under the bestsellers section) and give it a read. This is one book you dun want to miss.

Better not type too much.....gonna wait for her call and also count down to her return.

Cheers,
Teddy ;)

Saturday?

2005-03-19T23:32:00.000+07:00

My most exciting moment on 19/03/05 Saturday, is nite time when vi called me. Really enjoyed talking to her as it really helps curb my addiction of her. Had been missing her so much for the whole day and worse thing is nobody jio me out or anything. Got so bored.....but Gaston actually brought his notebook over for some reformating and we spent the whole afternoon and evening trying to fix it. Counting down to her return.....hoping to see her in my dream in the mean time. " Vi, i miss you so much."

Missing Vi,
Teddy

Meaning of ecstatic

2005-03-19T00:50:00.000+07:00

Just before i was thinking of starting on typing this blog, Vi called me....FROM HK!!!! Was overjoyed when i saw her name appear on the screen of my mobile phone!! "Vive"....and i was like @@....haha!!!! I wanted to call her but was hesitating as i know she would be busy and tired so i didnt really want to disturb her momentum while working and i didnt really expect her to call.

She flew to HK on fri morning for her company event which she and her colleague were put in charged. They really had a hard time planning and co-ordinating the whole thing and often than not, she had to work OT. And on that particular day when the both of them worked til 12 plus midnight, i was there with them. Actually i ta bao dinner for them la. I wasnt planning to meet her as she said she will be working til late so i called home and informed my mum to cook my share for dinner. I headed straight home and went jogging. After my run, she called and ask me to help ta bao food for her and her colleague which i did after i had mine.

Now, she's in HK, and seriously, i do miss her alot. Keep wanting to call her but afraid to disrupt her. I dun even miss my parents so much when they went overseas. Not seeing her or hearing her for one day is like months had passed, so dun ask me y i look so gloomy huh!!! How i wish that i am there with her now. If i am filthy rich, i wont be here typing this blog le.....Haiz....y am i not born rich???

Wah.....i cant stop smiling when i was on the phone with her.....even up til now.....Realli looking forward to monday when she returns!!! Monday come QUICK!!!

Cheers,
Teddy ;)

A wonderful 24th birthday

2005-03-08T23:11:00.000+07:00

Happy birthday to me!!!! My birthday last year, i received the most wonderful gift from ah yan, that is i got to know my ganjie and vive. For this, i owe ah yan alot alot which i dun know how to eva repay her also. and that was last year's birthday.

this year's birthday was even more unforgettable. I received this:

my wonderful birthday present

And the best part is that it was sent to my office. Imagine all the suan-ing by my colleagues.....-_-" I'm not going to disclose who sent it but if you are good enuff, u might be able to make out the words on the card. But i was very happy and i could not stop smiling after that. i didnt expect that and this year, i was thinking of jus dinner with frens and expected nothing much and i got more than i ask for. treated my colleagues to dinner and got a RAOUL shirt and tie from them. And of cos, a car handheld vacuum i wanted to buy from kk and frens. A nice pouch from my ganjie, Waterboys VCD set from justin and kok bin, which was also wat i was looking for. Ultimately, this is the most memorable birthday so far in my life. And i want to really thank that someone who sent me the very "Girly" sunflowers and facial treatment essence. To the one who sent me flower: U definitely made my day and my life, will treasure you no matter wat. Thanks so much once again and i love you. ;)

Cheers,
Teddy

Happy new year and happy valentines day

2005-02-16T21:18:00.000+07:00

Haha.....super duper long time liow....got ppl complain liow lor. Ok, here i go.

Yes, i have not been home early for the past one month i think. That explains the emptiness of my blog and no, dun realli have pics to post ;( Was out with her almost every nite, for dinner, shopping or jus wondering ard. Went to chinatown twice, one was simply wandering ard and the other was with purpose, buy ba gua.

Was realli happy with her cos i can realli be myself when she is ard. Dun have to hide anything and act abnormal. We realli clique, jus like that. Maybe its our character or maybe we are jus alike. Have "almost" the same taste, look carefully, its "almost". Cos she realli can tahan spicy food. Basically, the spicier the better. I can say she cant survive without chilli.

Chinese New Year was quite normal except that this year dun have to spend it in camp. And that feeling is great. Besides that, all quite normal. And seems that this year, luck is not on my side. Had been losing in games since the first day of Chinese new year til now lor. Think add up almost lost $100 liow.....Wah lau aye...xim tiah!!!!

Haiz.....should not have gambled in the first place la huh?? but dun realli feel bad la cos money can be earned one. Dun believe my luck will be down for the whole year lor. But i wont gamble liow la except maybe buy some toto or 4d or scratchit every now and then lor. But i never betted huge sum la.....Xiao du yi qing, da du shang gan qing.....

To better luck for the rest of the year, Cheers.

Hope everyone fa da chai in the year of rooster and best of health.

Gong Xi Fa Cai
Wan Shi Ru Yi
Xin Siang Shi Cheng
Hong Yun Dang Tou

HUAT AR!!!!!!

sianz....

2005-01-27T23:20:00.000+07:00

Piangz.....jus found out that i failed a module for my advance dip. course. took two module last sem, financial management and intl' marketing strategy. thot i was going to fail the financial module but failed the marketing module instead.....and i thot i can finish my course this yr....looks like i have to drag another sem into yr 2006 liow.....shit lah!

Cannot, muz buck up liow.....and wats worse? i have not booked my IPPT date til now and window closing in early march.....and i sure cannot pass one lor. dun feel like taking cos already know cannot pass liow. but heard at least must take once....how??

anyway, here a pic taken at Suntec of me and Vive, was doing roadshow in suntec and vive works there too so met her for lunch.....photo was takened using my company camera. ;Þ

To a better tomolo, Cheers!!
Teddy

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Sat nite out with some new frens

2005-01-18T19:51:00.000+07:00

Being frenly is one of my traits lah and those ppl who knows me know that pretty well. Well, we can never have enough frens. Spent a very fruitful day on last saturday, 15/01/05, knowing a bunch of nice and fun frens. We had steamboat at liang seah street in a restaurent call xian de lai. Not bad lah jus that the food was a bit overwhelming. After which we went to marina south for bowling game and wow, few of them realli experts leh.....let me intro the new frens i've met.

L to R: YinYing, Joyce, Jolene, my nu peng you vive, and ah yan. (note that Joyce and Jolene are twins)

L to R: Andrew(joyce's boyboy), Clarence(yan's boyboy), that's me ;Þ, Melvin(jolene's boyboy) and Adriane(yinying's boyboy)

Finally the long awaited Pics from sebana cove

2005-01-04T22:11:00.000+07:00

hi ppl..... i jus got the photos today from my colleague. wah....never ask never give one. KNS. Anyway i got it liow lah. Here they are.....enjoy!!!

statue??

we were suppose to be statues

telematch

yeah....we got to the finals

left left left right left

they call it skiing on grass...

relac after game

a grp foto before dinner

bigger grp foto

Cheers,
Teddy

Happy New Year Everyone!!!

2005-01-01T15:05:00.000+07:00

Best wishes to all out there in yr 2005. And to all the victims of the tsunami, be strong, Help in on the way. Love is on the way. Hang on.

Had been quite a while since i last blogged like wat raymond said, cos i had been waiting for photos from my trip to Sebana cove in JB and also Xmas pics. and i have not got it yet folks. Partly also cos of work lah. Well, i will not wait further. Wil just continue to blog and when i get the pics, will jus post them anyway.

Had a wonderful Xmas eve at Costa sand resort pasir ris organised by KK. Although we were sort of like the only two who were busy preparing for all the things on that day itself, managed to make it work lah. Furthermore, got to know new frens during the chalet. People like Chiow Yan, the cute gal, brian and kelvin, very nice ppl. Guess thats the most precious and lasting present u will ever get during xmas. This year, i received a lot of xmas present which was not the case in previous years. Maybe its cos i give a lot this year and wat goes ard comes ard. Received a lot of gifts from colleagues and frens. and although the countdown not super duper happening, we still made it quite fun especially with my Platoon3 ppl who can make things happening wherever we are.

New yr's eve was a lot more quiet and peaceful. Met up with ganjie, bernard and chiow yan for dinner, followed by a brief session of Pool and movie after that. Watched Meet the fockers, sequel to meet the parents. Not a bad show and its quite funny. Can watch lah. After the show, we went downstairs of cineleisure for a small countdown and went back up to Kbox for KTV session for the rest of the nite til 5 plus. Everyone was shagged out, and i quite enjoyed it cos i get to sing thru new year. Chiow yan is a very good singer. she possess a nice voice even though she claim that she was not blessed with one. she can sing pretty well, jus that she need to learn to control her air output when she is singing thru the control of her diaphram. in chinese, its called "Dan Tian". and also her pitching a bit out sometimes especially when there is a transition of key change. But overall, she has a very good voice.

Had a quiet eve this year unlike last year where i went to the foam party in sentosa. anyway, was glad that i had spent it with ppl i adore and overall was quite satisfied with everything. At least we dun have to go thru the tragedy which the tsunami victims did rite?? so we should be happy leh.

Once again, Happy new year and may all ur wishes be granted in yr 2005. Cheers, Teddy

Exams over

2004-12-07T22:27:00.000+07:00

Exam finally over liow. I should be feeling relieved?? Well, seems to me that this is not the case leh, cos i feel more pressurized liow as to whether i can pass the paper or not. As i really dun want to disappoint my father whom had paid for the fee. I should have put in more effort into studies lah. Haiz....too late liow lor. A word of advice for Tommy boy....."Start Now, Dun Wait Til Its Too Late". Actually i am quite tired of my life and how i live my life liow. Tired of being the Good guy whom everybody think could be expandable. Tired of being fat.....tired of being Mr. nice guy and all. Always have the feeling of under-achieving. Maybe i should realli go do something bout it and start making life interesting for myself. I love music so maybe i should go take part in competitions and spice up my life. Seriously, if i have the money now, i would start up a business on my own and try to make things happen. Feel that its more satisfying this way, Opening a cafe with sofa seats and dimly litted, playing downtempo grooves, jazz, blues, bossa nova and serving good coffee or alcohol with a pool table or two. i onli get to live once and its onli for that few decades and i had already spent a quarter of my life loofing ard without accomplishing much. Its time i live for myself and stop living life for others. Is this wat they call the Quarter-life Crisis?? i need Guidance, i Need a sign or a beacon to show me the way. Feeling sort of lost rite now.....Light of Hope??? YES, Please....Over Here.....Maybe i should just start with my fitness routine. Hopefully this urge to keep fit can sustain for a while.

Cheers,
Teddy-yu ren(Fool)

this week....

2004-11-28T22:44:00.000+07:00

nothing much happening this week. Had to set up a mini roadshow at suntec for a stupid lame game launch. Its really that lame.....Dun believe go see for urself @ www.mycity.com.sg and washed the car on Sat and stupid thing is it started to rain while i was wiping of the water on the car.....Damn pissed off lah. Waited til the rain stop then wipe again. This weekend was like family days to me, cos my dad's cab broke down and had to be repaired before he can start driving again and they dun work thru the weekend. So was at home on Sat and Sun and the whole family had dinner together on both nites like we used to. Went to collect my Islander Card today finally and my whole family went depite the pouring rain. We drove lah....if not they sure wont go one. drove ard sentosa and walk abit at the ferry terminal and decided to leave as the rain gets heavier. Went to chinatown, Dad did some shopping and had dinner and went home. And not long after, went to suntec to pack up stuffs of the mini roadshow and finally.....realli finally bought my dumb bells at the Aibi roadshow. Had been wanting to get the dumb bells since beginning of the year. So, finally lah.....gonna workout at home and try to shape up liow.....and also...had not realli been running also.....muz restart after the exams which is next week. Wish me luck ba.....To bigger biceps.....JIA YOU!!!! Cheers, Teddy

Happy Birthday Yan!!

2004-11-21T22:52:00.000+07:00

Today's yan's birthday and dun worry i wont expose ur age lah.....KK organised a mini celebration for her and initially were suppose to dine at jurong side, so i drove all the way to chinese garden MRT to meet them and in the end, we ended up in a seafood restaurant @ ecp. KNS.....should jus decide earlier mah....then i can go there straight. But nvm, the dinner was great. But the bill was a bit overwhelming though and the birthday gal treated us, a bit xin tong for her cos she not working at the moment. Took some pics of cos....(this kind of occasion sure muz take photo one mah) so without further ado.....there you go....and of cos not forgetting, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAN!!! May all ur wishes come true. Stay happy and beautiful always. Cheers, Teddy

the Birthday Gal....Venise

the cake's on fire!!!!!

thats me and yan

wat r u looking at??

thats more like it

yan ganjie and mimi eyed bernard

the Three Beautiful Ladies...

thats ken in pink....vive and yan

grp photo....took using timer

some of us were looking at the other cam also timer set

cut the cake quick......

enjoying the YAM cake.....see how big my cake was...had a hell of a time finishing it....

yes and she wanted to keep the candles....well....happy birthday...

Motorshow 2004

2004-11-15T22:42:00.000+07:00

Ladies and Gentlemen.....Presenting....all the way from Suntec.....Pictures from the Motorshow 2004. Had been a few days since the opening and still quite a lot of ppl. And the show gals there not very fascinating lor that y i didnt take a lot.....rather take pic of the cars lor and the models have to stand in front of the car and block my angle for a good shot of the car.....and me and my fren were like..."hey, can you please stand away so i can take a good pic of the cars??". But still have to give them some credits lah for wearing so little under air condition environment for the whole day. $10 for the entrance fee is jus rite, if it goes higher, i would say its not worth it lor.....not much of new cars......jus that they showcase lots of nice muscle cars. Enuff of toking...time for pics.....Indulge with care ppl....Cheers, Teddy

toyota concept car

lexus.....branded toyota

Nissan Fairlady 350Z

Honda Racing Concept

front view...fierce rite

back view...

check out the rim and brembo disc brake

Honda S2000 wif nice babe.....

S2000 front

the car or the babe?? i choose the car cos wif it, i can get lots of babe.....hahaha

porche

Damn Fierce Lamborghini/s

feel its better than the WRX....Legacy GT....

my dream car-Lotus Elise

very fast car...

kawaii..!!!

Blue RX8

statue of Rubberty

Singapore Buskers Festival

2004-11-15T01:24:00.000+07:00

Hey guess wat? Its the annual buskers festival again!!! Realli luv the buskers, and they were invited from all over the world. Realli envy them also, get to go ard the world and perform and see so many different ppl. Watched a few of them last nite in front of Tong Building(in between lucky plaza and paragon) along orchard road and they were realli realli entertaining. I feel that there should be more of busking in singapore and liven up the streets. But very sadly, lots of frens i know knows very little or didnt even know wats busking. Busking is a form of Performing Arts and busking can be in the from of a very vast ways. It could be dance, music, visual arts, short plays, skits, miming, acrobat and many more.....and they all need lots of practices to ensure it realli appeal to the audience.
Cant forget the period of time when esplanade jus opened and there was the opening performances everyday, and i would like go there every evening to watch all the performances. Realli enjoyed myself then but performances like this are getting less and less and have to wait for the busker festival onli held once every year. how sad. The festival started on the 13th nov and will go on til 21st which is the coming sunday. So do look out for it if you happen to be at Orchard in the evening ard 7pm. They will be performing at 4 different locations along orchard road. And you might jus see me ard also, enjoying the performances. Well, had a long weekend, Five days in total...shiok and was realli quite relaxing and fulfilling. Hope to have more of this kind of long holidays in future. Enjoy ur holidays ppl, enjoy the busker festival also. And i might be going to the motorshow tomolo.....pray for photos...hahaha. Look out for the Babes and Cars.

Cheers,
Teddy

Summary of the week

2004-11-07T21:56:00.000+07:00

This week passed exceptionally fast even though its a full working week. Most prob its becos of all the events going on during the week such as my company golf day on wed, and Booth display at suntec for Cisco VoiceComm on thur and fri. I was appointed the "Official" camera man for the golf day and had to be at Singapore Island Country Club, SICC, at ard 9 on Wed. Quite fulfilling and boring....cos when the golf game was going on, was doing nothing and have to accompany colleague eat this eat that cos they want to try everything and all food and drinks on the company. All that and buffet dinner at the restaurent. Super nice dinner and wine and reached home onli ard 9 plus and have to reach suntec ard 8.30.....haizzzz..... But to think that my manager actually took so much time organizing the whole event and everything went very well, was quite relieved. Thur and Fri, i was at suntec first half day for both days, and onli one word to describe it, Boring. But nonetheless, was relieved that all ended liow. and looking to the coming week where onli have to work three days.....cos i took leave on fri....Shiok.....ok time for some pics i took at SICC.....Cheers, Teddy

golf day banner

nice weather.....

the centre cha bor chio or not?

my masterpiece

my masterpiece2

and it started raining at ard 2 plus

then it stopped and game goes on...

nice trophy

grp foto at end of day...i too dark liow...cannot see...spot me got prize.....

Eventful Saturday

2004-10-31T16:10:00.000+07:00

It was really a saturday fully utilised, got invitation to a colleague's birthday chalet, qualified for the Mediacorp radio Subaru WRX challenge which took up half of the day already. Met up with KK and vive and eventually ganjie and bernard also.

me drawing ballot

this is the chap who helped me call in....Gaston AKA Boss

All thanks to Gaston, who helped me call in to the radio station to qualify for the WRX challenge, woke up at ard 6.30am on saturday morning as we have to reach Taka by 8am but its bullshit lah cos we went there and joined the wrong queue resulting in a long wait and by the time we registered, was already 8.30am. Went to macs at wisma for some breakfast and proceeded back for the second rd of queuing for the ballot. and finally at ard 10 plus, ballot commence and the lucky both of us got the ballot one after another.....you might say we/re lucky but i doubt so as the position i got was one of the killer spot. Right between the two rear tail lights which means that i can't even stand straight, kneel or sit. Can onli squat.

I smsed the whole world to announce the good news and also my manager to tell her i might not be able to come to work on monday. proceeded with the challengeand guess wat, got disqualified after jus 39 mins......well anyway i dun think i can last that long even if i held on cos my hand was already numb and shaking after 30 mins cos of the awkward position i was in. how i got disqualified? well the judges were really strict and i didnt want to hang on lah. got the first warning when the judge discovered that my whole palm other than the area below the thumb was on the car. Second warning after the judge saw that i was in a half squat position (one knee on the ground and i was doing it on and off since the beginning), and i was out when i was seen puttin my left hand which was suppose to be free on the ground( i was doing it since the beginning). Felt quite unfair as there was no rules against all that action and why did you wait 30 mins to see wat i've been doing all along? Didnt want to argue cos my palm was alreadynumb and i knew i wont be able to survive for two or three days even if i had hung on. So might as well dun waste time.

Smsed the whole world to broadcast the bad news.....nevertheless, got a goodie bag from subaru also so not quite bad which contains a mug, STI cap, Subaru polar bear soft toy. Even got cert to remind u of the time u hung on. haha and it was an amusing 39mins.

Went for lunch with gaston and his gf, my sis who came and support but in the end to no avail and also her fren. and went home after that to wash up and proceed to my colleague's birthday chalet which i was suppose to turn down if i had hung on in that WRX challenge. The worst thing is that i actually got on TV in the news. Few of my fren smsed me,"u siow ah? go and join the wrx challenge". haha damn fun.....good shit lah.

nothing much for the chalet, and after that proceeded to meet up with KK and vive at orchard cineleisure where vive was apparrently on a shopping spree. and after that proceeded to Rouge where vive's fren was working and got in for free. ganjie and bernard joined us in the middle of it and went to have my fortune told using tarot cards. was really impressed as the way the person described my character by looking at the cards i drawn was so accurate that it realli freak me out. And gave me some positive answer lor so and said that my rite one would appear ard 3 to 5 mths later....dun know real or not ah...haha......anyway onli time will tell lor. Reached home ard 3am after turning down supper with them. Wasnt really tired lah, jus that the music there was really loud and its super smoky and its all getting on my nerves.....wanted to be alone for the nite. and that ends my sat.....eventful rite? well, couldnt have been better lor.

Cheers,
Teddy

To swallow with luv........

2004-10-25T21:17:00.000+07:00

To swallow,

there will never be another swallow like u, u are the one and onli. I will never ever accept your apologies as there was never meant to be an apology in our story. Remember deep in your heart the there is onli gratitude in our story, " thanks for being in my life, even though ur jus a passerby, i learnt a great deal bout life."

Please dont feel sorry and dun say u owe me a lot as i believe nobody owe anybody anything in this world unless there is an agreement by both party. And be assured that i will be ur guardian bear til end of time simply cos silly bear wants to thank swallow for all the wonderful frens that swallow had brought into bear's life and teaching bear the real facts of life. and bear dun ever want to hear swallow say sorry again.....ever....will always be by ur side. May you fly with grace and swift, dun forget that bear always by ur side, can find bear anytime if swallow need help. Bear will try best to help. Smile always, light up someone life like i've always yearn for.

Yours Forever,
luv,silly bear.

The Rainbow Swallow--------Letting go....

2004-10-18T21:03:00.000+07:00

The rainbow swallow
By Teddy Teo

There’s a pet shop located just round the corner of my apartment block and everyday on my way to work, I never fail to pass by the shop where varieties of cute little things were sold. I never had the intention to own a pet so I never did notice or take a closer look into the shop before.

Then one fine day, while on the way to work as usual, something bright and colorful caught my eye when I passed by the pet shop. Curious, I took a closer look and a rainbow colored swallow appeared before my very eyes. I was amazed and fascinated by it beauty as I stared at it while it spread its wings displaying a wide array of colors and while still looking at it, I asked the shop owner whom without even finish hearing what I said, shouted rudely: “ no, that bird is not for sale”. Disappointed, I walked away with my eyes taking a last glance at the colorful creature.

Everyday when I go to and return from work, I would walk into the shop and look at the swallow and try to persuade the shop owner to sell me the swallow. But to my dismay, the answer was always negative. Hence I could only hope on and pray that someday the shop owner would change his mind. Day after day, the same routine would take place and day by day, I noticed that the color on the swallow was getting duller and duller, losing all its brightness and hue. It made me sad and I became more persistent as I can see in the swallow’s eye that it not happy encaged within metal sticks. And finally, one fine day, the shop owner who couldn’t stand me irritating him everyday any longer, agreed to my request.

I was overwhelmed and took the swallow home immediately, hoping to see its color recover to its original brightness. But to my disappointment, as days go by, nothing improved and finally one day, defying my sense of unwillingness, I set the swallow free. It flew out of the cage, stood on the window ledge and soon enough, its color recovered to almost what I had seen when I first saw it. And eventually after a few minutes, it took off into the blue sky.

Deep in my heart, I thought: Fly Swallow, Fly,
Fly to the sky so blue and high,
Were u meant to be mine?
If so, this wont be goodbye.

Tear drop trickled down as the thought come and go, I have to learn to let go. As, if things were meant to be mine, they will come back to me.

I was naive, to think that if i give my all, i would receive something. Naive, to think that wat goes ard, comes ard which was never the case. Y is that so? The world's never always fair or can i say its never fair? Although i never expect any returns of any kind, am still disappointed of how this world works. Although i cant confirm that she's attached, I've decided to let go. If this phrase," Let go, if things were meant to be yours, they will come back to u", is true, then i guess time will tell. I hope that i have grown, grown enuff to not repeat the same thing again as there is a limit of how much i can give and also, i found out that my patience wasn't really that everlasting. Although she never rejected me straight in the face, and i'm still open to any facts, there is no guarantee that i will accept wat i've long to receive, if things do come ard. As i've did it before, " hao mah bu chi hue tou chow", i will only look back but will never go backwards. As the feeling will be different by then.

Yan, i dont blame u, neither do i blame anyone. Instead, i like to thank u for enlightening me and letting me know the cruel facts of life. Life's never easy and certain things we have to learn to let go. I was naive and stupid, and i hope that i had grown up. Although i've let go, i am still clinging on to the least of hope.....waiting for the answer of whether u were, by any chance, meant to be mine.

Cheers,
Teddy

moving on

2004-10-17T20:45:00.000+07:00

she's attached apparently, after all she had told me, but she did the rite thing. At least i had the least hope and if things dun turn out the way i want, i wont feel as hurt. Now i wish her all the best and xin fu but we're still frens rite?? And i wont want to lose her as a fren cos i got to know a lot of frens and even my ganjie thru her. Wat i can say is wo men you yuan wu fen bah......

Learnt my lesson in life and time to move on and learn more things. Have to learn to accept the fact that the world is not always fair and you might not get wat you want in life. Have to accept it as parts and parcel of life, and we must eventually learn to let go of things that are not meant to be yours.

I'll be fine.....actually i more or less got over it already and had been trying to live life to the fullest every day and looking forward to every new days. Hopefully things will go well til the end of the year which is reachin soon. So fast, another year will be written into the history book again and lets jus wish that next yr will be better.

long time no blog....

2004-10-13T21:08:00.000+07:00

Its been awhile since i last blogged, cos got nothing much happening in this phase of my life. Semester had started for my studies of Advance Dip. in Business Admin with purpletrain, have to start reading up and doing assignments and stuff......then also everyday have to work....although work had tone down a lot nowadays but sometimes still have to manage unforseen last minute cock ups......

So boring.....how can i make my life a bit more interesting and fun?? looks like only music can brighten up my day.....morning have to listen to radio on the way to work, in office will always listen to MP3 on my laptop, have to listen to my creative MuVo on way home and of cos before i sleep, will have to listen to radio again. Maybe i'm someone whose afraid of being alone i guess, have to use music to make it seems like i'm not alone. its true, i will die if i'm left alone for too long.....i'm also somehow someone who likes attention, would feel good if someone notice me and look at me.....in watever way lah...good or bad but i enjoy being noticed, esp. from opp sex of cos.

i also have a craving for pretty faces, find it very refreshing to see nice and pretty faces ard. Like wat i mentioned before, seeing pretty faces brightens up one's day, esp. when i see a cheerful pretty face. Seriously, a smile can make a big difference on a person's look and face. A pretty face will not be that attractive when that person is not smiling compared to a pretty face with a big bright smile.

So Smile more frens, go out and brighten up people's day and brighten up urs too.

Cheers,
Teddy

practical world....

2004-10-02T22:10:00.000+07:00

Its been two months straight that i have no schedule to perform in Muchuan liow.....so sad. That only means two things to me, 1. I can't Sing or my singing not up to standard, 2. they are jus trying to con ppl of money by having ppl to audition, take lessons and have their frens come support them to boost customer number and also marketing.

I dun know man, out of my five classmates who were in the same class as me in vocal class, two females are still being scheduled to sing and i can say one of the gals can't sing for god sake....and the other one can sing very well but dun realli know how to entertain the crowd....seen them in action and i'm not very impress. Well, i am not saying i'm good lah but at least out of the six of us in that batch, i performed before in public @ suntec and at least i make the effort to learn new songs lor. Maybe i'm not good enuff lah but they should at least email or call to inform me that i wont be scheduled to sing or perform anymore and tell me some excuse or reasons mah.....at least make ppl feel better rather than jus treat as if nothing had happened. At least we paid for the vocal lessons lor....and $120 per month is not exactly very cheap also lor.....

Well, at least i experienced it before lah and i did learn from all the lessons and stage performances and they are all precious memories and lessons in my life now. hmmm...maybe i should go to the ming ge chan ting @ marina sq, Ai Qing Hai, and try hor....maybe the ppl there will know how to appreciate me....haha....

no lah...jus joking lah....dun want to waste all the money again liow...this world very practical one....nothing comes free. But i'm still taking guitar lessons with muchuan lah nevertheless....now dun know whether should continue or not...

Cheers,
Teddy

Bintan Trip....

2004-09-27T22:02:00.000+07:00

ONE WORD......"SHIOK".....long time never play so much liow....and wat can i say? Bintan is a beach bum's paradise.....Didnt really took a lot of photos lah. Only a bit but already canshow u ppl how nice it is in bintan liow. Although the food there quite ex, but i feel its really a trip worth spending. Recommended and i might jus org one again next yr ard mid yr cos monsoon season had started. Been raining in the afternoon for the three days i've been there but its onli a short rain but still quite wasted cos wanted to do a major suntan there but in the end onli tan a bit onli.Expected to come back with major sunburn but didnt.

Went with my colleagues and we booked a villa which is a bungalow with four rooms and seaview. So nice....10 over ppl can squeeze inside and still got room to sleep. With private pool and short walking distance from beach. Imagine drinking and smoking in the pool....shiok rite??

Food not bad there, morning got breakfast buffet provided and one particular cafe food quite reasonable and portion quite big also. Bought six bottles of hard liqour and sixty packets of cig....in the end can finish the cig and started to give away as tips on the last day and the liquor have to carry home. Played go cart and jet ski, had BBQ dinner, played Zhong ji mi mah and drink til late nite.....joking and laughing none stop. Totally relaxed and destress during my three days there.

enuff of text.....use pics to tell instead.

oh para para...dise

paradise 2

paradise1

monkey business??

nah....(middle finger)

buggy.....

drummer.....

even more relac

relac..

BBQ dinner....shiok

go carting

my boss

bintan lagoon resort villa

jap lunch

bintan advance grp

this world

2004-09-19T21:21:00.000+07:00

An advice for all.....Be glad that you are born into this wonderful world. To be able to experience all the wonderful things that this world offers, yes and that include your fucking boring history teacher, your fucked up neighbour, the fucker who dumped you. Its because you are alive and that ENTITLES you to have all this kind of good and bad experiences.

Life is never a smooth ride, i feel that parents should inculcate this to all their kids when they were young and teach them to appreciate all that they have and not take things for granted. Cos this world had come to a stage that everyone had taken things for granted. Like for example, you would expect your pc to be turned on with a flick of a switch, water to flow with a turn of the tap, everything to be in place like every other day. But have you actually thot of wat will happen if suddenly one day everything you expect to happen didnt turn out that way?

And honestly after reading the latest issue of National Geographics, that day wont be far away. And i know that noone really cares anyway.....

Let me tell u that u will kill urself earlier than you think if life were to be like how you want it to be cos everything will be so predictable and routine and monotonous. Humans learn their lessons faster thru pain, and we all learn thru our mistakes so if life were to be so perfect, nothing will ever improve.

so much preaching....nothing to blog thats y one week onli blog once. Nothing much happened this week except that i finally got to see her last tuesday for dinner with vive. It had been such long time.....and although the food we had was far from good, had a nice time catching up.

Yesterday went to derek and elaine's housewarming cum baby's first birthday and starting thinking whether i will end up like them one day or otherwise? Get married, have a child and bought a flat. Everything seems like fixed even b4 anything was place in order. Nice knowing that everyone are still in one piece and living life well, met up for movie with kk, bern and ganjie. and after the movie, proceeded to AMK for supper with my sec sch npcc frens.

didnt do much today also, woke up, went to dad's fren's place to check on faulty com, came home and played bit of game, went to look at car again and this time its quite fixed that we are gonna get the lancer and took a whole stack of forms to fill in. Such a hassle to buy a car, everything need form to fill up. And the worst thing is that we had to wait til beginning of nov to collect the car cos we choose black colour which is a hot colour and demand was very good. well, wat to do?? nvm lah i guess, its jus a matter of time onli mah. Next week, i will be away to bintan with colleagues. from fri to sun i will be away. realli looking forward to it cos never been there b4 and it had been a long time since i had such breaks. Hope i have fun there and dun worry there will be photos. Till i blog again, stay happy ppl....

Cheers,
Teddy

Tiring weekend

2004-09-12T21:00:00.000+07:00

Ok lah....not very very tiring lah, jus that i feel very tired and sleepy even though i slept my whole sunday away. Friday nite i didnt realli do anything cos i have to go for a health screening at sengkang on sat morning ard 9.30. Very early rite?? and we were suppose to stop food intake after 11.30 on fri nite so that the result would be more accurate. Well, the results were fine except that i am still overweight....(obviously, i know myself) even though i had been trying to cut down my weight which i had. The last time i weigh myself, ard 104Kg, and on sat when they weigh me, ard 96kg.....was quite happy to know that lah but i am still very far away from my ideal weight at 77Kg. The urine test and the blood test have to wait for an hour to know the result so i asked them to mail me the result instead cos i realli dun want to wait that long and i am so hungry liow.....

After the screening, went to yishun and met Ang Hock Beng, one of my best campmates, for a hair cut. Cos he also cut his hair at the same saloon one mah...which belongs to my uncle. And we went Safra yishun for a swim after that....So shiok cos never swim for Months liow....And result, slight sun burn on shoulder....KNS!!!!

After the swim we went for lunch and parted our way after we bought a pillow each at $9.90. Dun ask me how come suddenly buy pillow cos i also dun know...Went home to shower and went out to get tickets for movie with ganjie at PS. Called HY but her phone was off. Wanted to jio her for movie also cos super long never see her liow.....but in the end still me and my ganjie onli. Watched "Harold and Kumar goes to white castle" Its a hilarious comedy but quite meaningless lah but we did enjoy the good laugh though.....Rating? Can watch but dun waste $2 more for it....watch it on weekdays. And after the show? Went Kbox wif my ganjie.....wah and the two of us sang from ard 10 til 3 in the morning....Super shag and tring lor but we had fun though and my ganjie wants me to teach her how to sing better.....and we were so hungry after the KTV session that we went Mr. Bean for food to fill our stomach a bit.....

And slept til ard 3 plus today and woke up to iron my clothes.....and after which, went with my family to Shop ard for Car.....Looked onli at two brands though, Mitsubitshi and Toyota which we thought were quite value for money and ultimately we decided for the Mitsubitshi Lancer 1.6 5M/T Sports. My sis gonna book the car next week...but will have to depend on the availability of the stock to decide when to pick up the car.....Looking forward to it man....hee hee finally......

Very sleepy and lethargic....going sleep liow....til i blog again!!

Cheers,
Teddy

to flee or not to flee???

2004-09-08T21:55:00.000+07:00

Went to her friendster acct and took a peek, Noticed she had changed her nick and open her pic page, saw some new fotos. I tried to forget bout everything that had so called happened and tried giving up. Ganjie had tried hard to persuade me to move on and thomas had encouraged me to carry on with my life but seems that bits and pieces still lingers. I had not been seeing her for one month plus liow and i still long to see her. Feel that she had been kind of like avoiding me or something.

I shouldnt be bloggin all this down but.....i have gained quite a bit of wisdom and way of life from everything since i worked and i can say that my exp pts had realli increased. Feel that things shouldnt be forced and "the greatest thing u'll ever learn is jus to love and be loved in return" but before all this, have to learn to luv urself first. We have to be selfish sometimes cos not all things work ur way or the way u want so sometimes its better to gain something first before losing something, then ur life will be so called balanced. If not u will tend to lose urself in the end.

Well, maybe she can go ahead and be frank bout it.....tell me straight and i can realli give it up and we can still go on as frens.....cos she's too good a fren to lose. I have learnt to take things easily as they come but of cos, somethings needs time to dilute. Guessed that she had lots of frens who acted kind of like the same way as me, fell for her and sort of things. That explains y she is so seasoned when it comes to handling all this thingy.

Might jus be that i think too much also.....old habit acting up again. might jus be she not in good mood as things had not realli been going well for her?? But no pt guessing and all lah.....we seems to be talking less cos i call her less often now and when i do, we dun realli tok much also.....i'm not realli good at toking lah especially to someone i adore. I can tok a lot of crap to frens and buddies but not to someone i like. Well, that me lor.....So still trying to smooth things out and trying to work things out. Hope that everything will go well in the end like wat she said, "everything will be fine in the end, if its not, then its no the end" well said, very well said indeed.

Cheers,
Teddy

nothing to blog.....

2004-09-07T20:56:00.000+07:00

Its been quite some time since i last blog....actually onli ard one week onli lah. Cos nothing much to write lor....life had been quite dull, onli able to enjoy a bit during the weekends. Wanted to write something on how i spent my weekend but i feel no need liow cos ganjie and thomas had both written and posted pics on it so save me the trouble also....if want to see can go to their blog and take a peep.
My GaNjIe's blOgspOt~
Thomas's Crap and racist World -_-"

Sunday was interesting, My sis had this lobang to work as a marshal for a game, organised by this company call NuQuest. It was something like Amazing race but singapore style where contestant were grp up and they have to start off from one location, solved clues and complete obstacles along the way and go thru checkpoints all over singapore. They flaged off from Compasspoint and my sis and gang and i were stationed at suntec to give them clues and act as checkpoint also. Very fun.....one of the obstacle is called Speedtrap where participants were given a clue and they have to find one Orange Car kiddie ride and they have to let one kid ride it in order to earn 300 pts. And the next clue leads them to beach rd army market. Like that one day as marshal earn $50 and i spent everything on two G2000 long sleeve shirt. yes two for $49. very cheap.

I thought the game was very fun and if have chance, would also like to try it.....seems like fun esp with bunch of good frens. Will look out for it and jio ppl to join if there is any such games being ORG!!!

Cheers,
Teddy

will i be able to sing @ muchuan again?

2004-09-01T20:29:00.000+07:00

KNS.....Ah du jus told me to sing on 31st aug onli then also never in form me that they are doing the final selection on that day and i thot its jus an ordinary new singers nite. And now i really wonder whether i will have the chance to sing in muchuan again. If i dont, i will be so so disappointed and i'm taking guitar lessons to enhance my ability to perform also.....if i am not selected, all my money and effort will sort of be wasted. :( But if i realli didnt get thru, looking on the bright side, at least i had the chance and had a wonderful exp.....keeping my fingers crossed now. Hope to hear good news soon lor. The most unforgettable exp is the day i performed @ suntec for charity on national day, i realli felt so satisfied and fulfilling after the performance and the feeling is even way much better than singing in muchuan. Realli hope i have the chance to perform in public again soon.

Its midweek and realli feel very tired from work. Starting to feel the hardship of working life. Feel lots of stress in office cos dun know y, things always go wrong one.....there wont be a day where things can go very smoothly, sure something will cock up one.....jus matter of big or small onli.....very tired leh.....haiz....

But i feel that its not the job, its the ppl working in the co. really.....sometimes how i wish i can do everything by myself then things wont cock up.....but i know i cant. And if i dun learn to manage all this, everywhere i go will be the same. Guess i muz grow up and thats where i gain exp and knowledge from lor.....still got a lot of things to learn thats y i'm still clinging on to the job. If not, i would have left long ago.....realli.

Thats all for todays blog, til i blog again.....

Cheers,
Teddy

Nostalgic Sat evening

2004-08-28T23:08:00.000+07:00

Attended the homecoming dinner of my secondary school, Mayflower Secondary School, jus a while ago and it really brings back all those memories from the corner of my hind brain.( for those who dun know, hind brain is where all our memories are )Although the turnout wasnt as i expected, quite a number of my classmates didnt turn up, but nevertheless, its still quite nice to see those familiar faces whom i would see everyday back then.

The homecoming dinner was actually organised with a reason. The old school campus will be demolished to make way for the new campus which is almost done jus next to the old one. So this is said to be a last reunion at the old school campus. The dinner was held in the hall of the school where i remember we would attend assemblies at back then. And guess how my classmates get to know bout the dinner.....Thru Frenster....how nice rite? Yes, frenster realli bring ppl together i guess. And i'm glad someone actually make the effort to organise the gathering and bought the tickets on our behalf....Thanks to KaiWei,wendy and weiling(pretty ladies, will post the pics when i get a hold of em)

Well, a trip back to the school realli bring back memories when i was still a teenager, where obstacles and problems i have to overcome is jus to study and pass tests and exams. Not like now, stress from work and other problems which bug u and never seem to leave and things dun seems to go ur way. Well, i guess thats life huh?? Went up to the classrooms where we used to study in, nothing much had changed lah seriously except that the classrooms r now air conditioned....so shiok rite? No wonder kids nowadays r so spoilt.....all thanks to technology and the ever increasing standard of living. Remember those days when we sould always discussed where to play soccer after school instead of heading home to do homework. And of cos not to forget the NPCC days which i can say r more of the highlights of my sec sch days. thats y i'm closer to my NPCC frens who always have gatherings every now and then. Saw a lot of teachers who imparted their knowledge to us, and some of them still looked the same lor.....amazing....like time had freezed at their side. Muz say that i'm quite surprised that so many of the teachers who taught me then r still there.

Another week is coming to an end.....had become more wiser i guess. Learnt that we shouldnt force things to become the way u want them to be when they werent meant to be that way. Everything should be fixed nicely, like a jigsaw puzzle where each pieces only fix nicely to another piece when they are suppose to be and aligned properly. There a chinese saying:"mian chiang shi bu huei you xin fu de". Meaning that there wont be happiness when things are force to be the way they werent meant to be. So i guess, have to let things run by their own and let nature take its course. Although some things will never change but the outcome will still be different. Read ray's blog and learnt new things also.....haha very interesting indeed, ironically things are realli that way. Guess thats the game lah huh!! We have to follow the rules or be foul out. Well, so much for a thoughtful and nostalgic me, Till i blog again.

Cheers,
Teddy

Another week passed....

2004-08-22T20:35:00.000+07:00

Another week passed and i'm older by another week. Nothing much happened the past week, been busy at work though and had been working real late in office which made me miss a week of evening jogs. I have not been seeing her for another full week and that makes it nearly one month already.....and like wat my ganjie said, sick of me telling the whole world how i miss her, but i realli do.....cant seem to get her out of my head. Cos she's having her exam so i also didnt call her much and tok to her. How i wish i can meet her soon and hear her voice again and this time its not from the speaker of the handset of the phone.....something analog rather than electronic.....hmmm haha wat a way to put it. Sorri ganjie, i'm cant help it. This is suppose to be a diary of some sort and it is suppose to hold my thots. I onli write wats on my mind and strangely, she's everywhere in my mind.....i sing i think of her, i jog i think of her, seems like she's everywhere i go....even when i go clubbing, i think of her. Ask me to stop it and not think bout her, how?

Went clubbing @ chinablack on fri with my NS juniors. They always jio me and i had turned them down a few times liow so i think, wat the heck, its been like three weeks since i last clubbed and joined them. The music is good, been a long time since i danced so hard but the service there sucks big time.....next time ask me to go again, i will think first before i go....well cover charge is cheep lah and the drink before 12 is cheap also @ 10 bucks per jug. Wat i mean sucks is that for re-entry, u have to join the new entry queue.....WTF, cos they check the id and stuff and u have to wait again for re-entry where other clubs have a seperate queue for re-entry.....and i was in the dance floor and i looked at my watch, noticed its jus 5 mins to 12 and thot of getting a few more jugs before the offer closed, went there ordered immediately and the bartender, a gal, looked at her watch, went around behind the bar and spoke to her colleague and then on of her colleague rang the bell implying that the offer is closed for the nite and i looked at the gal and she signal a cross sign with her hands, implying my order cant be fulfilled anymore.....

KNN, i feel so fucked up.....y couldnt u fulfill my orders first before closing?? its not even 12 yet when i placed my order.....realli feel like giving her one tight slap.....asked how much is a jug of beer, $35.....not wanting to look bad, i ordered one jug anyway. $35 can get me 3 jug before 12 and in DblO, can get me 11 shots easily....thats y i say the service there sucks.....and another ridiculous thing is that, no entry before 10 or 9.30..... stupid rite?? watever lah, anyway i had fun that nite cos long time never see those guys liow and the music's good also. at least something to balance things up. Well, thats prob the highlight of the week liow.....besides this, nothing much happened but i hope this week will be more interesting lor....til i blog again, Take good care. And one more thing, good luck to u ganjie and wish that ur job issue will be solved to the way u want it.....heehee and not forgeting to reserve some luck for hy also for her last paper tomolo. ;)

Cheers,
Teddy

Singapore Fireworks Festival

2004-08-17T20:57:00.000+07:00

Wow, i went for the last day of the firewerks fest at marina promenade and it realli touched me deep in.....tears well up in my eyes as the beauty of the pyrotechnic and awesome firework display lit up the dark sky and fascinates me thoroughly. Never had this kind of feeling b4 and how i wish she was there, sharing this wonderful feeling wif me. But nevertheless, i dedicate this blog to hy, wishing her all the best and good luck in her exams. And to ganjie, ur long awaited firewerks.....u realli shld have joined me.....looking forward to next year's SFF, Enjoy the fotos....

fire1

fire2

blue

fire4

fire5

fire12

fire11

fire6

fire7

fire8

fire9

fire10

fire13

fire14

aftermath

nitescene

Cheers,
Teddy

missing u

2004-08-15T12:57:00.000+07:00

Like wat thomas said, had quite a fulfilling day yesterday, met up and went for the wearnes tech sales where i bought a new black IDE CDRW 52x32x52 at a dirt cheap price of $55 and a spindle of 100 cdr at $38 dollars, both branded Imation. It was realli a bargain and we proceeded back to my house to drop my purchase after that. Then we went for our pool game, and thot of justin.....called him and he mentioned he is in that area and so we met up wif him and played some neat pool. Thereafter, we headed to PS for BK dinner, followed by a few games in the arcade. Went home after that and fixed my new CDRW and went out to meet my Sec Sch npcc frens @ amk central S11 and chatted til 3.....wah we realli tok a lot....but all guys tok lah...typical....and VOILA!!! Saturday passed jus like that.

Saw the channel u idol show last nite and spotted my gan mei on it....kns....go join also never jio me..haha. Well guess if she realli jio i also wont join one lor. Am happy with my muchuan performance liow. I dun ask for a lot....But its a pity she nv won, realli a pity if not she make it liow....and i will be very happy. heehee

Its been a realli long time since i last saw HY.....even though i did call her once in a while but i still miss her alot.....miss her so much that i dreamt of her again last nite. Stupid dream though but we r together in the dream. Is this a sign?? Bad or good, if it realli is. Missing someone realli sucks. Its ok to miss someone but its not when u dun get to see that someone often. Its like addiction.....except u wont realli suffer from withdrawal syndrome lah. Maybe a bit lah....like keep thinking of her, every second every minute.....her image jus keep on appearing in my mind.....especially when i'm not thinking of anything. When something good happen, feel like calling her immediately and tell her, receive something good, feel like sharing wif her. Received taka voucher from my manager and first thing that comes to my mind is ask her got anything to buy from taka.....realli realli miss her alot. Wonder when can i get to see her again to ease my withdrawal syndrome.....

Missing her everyday.....til i blog again.....

Cheers,
Teddy 1m1i1s1s1h1y1

sunshine after the rain

2004-08-11T22:01:00.000+07:00

Yu guo le yi ding huei tian qing, Well i'm back on my feet again. It was actually the public performance at a charity event which brought me back to my feet. It was such satisfying and fulfilling experience and i realli want to thank muchuan for this precious chance.

I performed the first time in public as a muchuan singer @ suntec, jus outside Carrefour the open space, on national day itself. It was a charity event organised by the NUSSU. And i was left esctatic after the performance cos it feels so great to do something for the unfortunate and to know that i actually am so lucky to be able to do all the thing i can do now where some ppl might not even be able to do since birth. Well, couple of things left me very very happy, one is that my ganjie, karen, actually turned up to support me.....Very surprised cos she told me she will be watching a movie. I was so happy and surprised to see her standing there below the stage. Another thing is actually i was suppose to sing her jackie chueng's number, "ai shi yong heng" but apparently no one can play that song so i sang Ocean's, "gu dan bei ban qui" and the nice thing is that everyone clapped after i sang the frist verse and chorus.....was SO SO sO touched....realli feel like a star man. Did the performance with ah du, jian hua, mei lian, zhi wei and qiu qun. Zhi wei and qui qun are new singers like me lah and i did a few duet with qiu qun and i can say we realli got mo qi cos we did it very well. Looking forward to more chances to team up with her again lor.....

and to yan, my feeling for u will not change.....at least not in the near future lah.....and i wish u all the best for ur exams and i will borrow u all my luck on that day....like wat u did when i had mine. Study hard.....support u all the way.

My next performance @ muchuan will be on 16th and 31st of this month. @ nite from 8 to 11 and cover charge of $10 applies. For those who want to come support me, i say u come next time when i got performance on sunday afternoon cos no need to pay cover charge and drinks onli $1 so its cheaper and u wont be so disappointed when i turned out to be not up to the standard. hee hee!! :)

Cheers,
Teddy 1l1o1v1e1h1y1 (btw i gave my pack of marlboro away, cos it nearly ruin my life. Will nv touch cig ever again)

downtime....

2004-08-08T00:39:00.000+07:00

Finally got to watch "Brotherhood" today and the movie is now on my MOVIE OF THE YEAR list. Yes, i realli enjoyed the movie thru and thru, with its fair share of violence, culture, touching scenes, CGI, etc..... Its realli worth every awards available. I can say its not totally a war movie, its jus that it all happens during war period and how brotherly love is shown. Like wat thomas said, its worth every dollars and if i realli onli have $8.50 left, i wont regret spending it on this film. Out of 5 stars, i rate it 4.5 stars.

After the movie, went Mac for dinner with edward whom i watched the movie wif. And we complained to each other bout work til ard 12 plus.....ha ha complain this complain that.....haiz.....life realli sux. And after we part our way, i walked all the way from PS to pacific plaza and took a cab home from there. Such long queue outside CB.....

And during the walk, i realli feel so down that i realli feel like killing myself lah. Saw so many ppl, couples and grps of frens and i'm walking alone along orchard rd. Thot so much....and i dun know y i feel so down also. Was it work? Was it her? or was it Life and everything?? Life realli sux.....Everything is so unfair. Saw a gal light her cig and suddenly feel like smoking also. And acting on impulse, i bought my first pack of Marlboro menthol light, light my first "bought" stick and felt like shit after that. Maybe i will throw it away or give it away lah.....Realli feel like toking to someone about everything but couldnt think of anyone to tok to at that time of the nite.....i really feel so down....so down.....Feel totally fucked up....super fucked up.....was wondering wat its like to die and leave everything fuck thing behind.....i know i will be sorry to my family and frens who cared bout me but they cant realli do anything to help also lah huh??

As for now, realli feel that everything will ultimately be fine after i woke up tomolo morning after a good sleep.....so tired of everything now. Out of my 24 yrs of life, I never realli felt like this before. But i know i muz get out of this somehow, and be strong like wat my ganjie says.

Hope that i will sleep all this feelings away tonite lor and wake up happy tomolo. But i will be the most happy if i can have her by my side now. Nothing beats that lah.....she's my antidote to everything now i guess....and to yan, if u r reading this, dun blame urself.....this got nothing to do wif u,..... its all jus me. I jus want u to be happy rite? Its all to my own accord that i have to go thru all this.....i brought it upon myself. Its all jus me and me alone.....

Cheers,
Teddy 1L1O1V1E1H1Y1

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2004-08-07T13:58:00.000+07:00

What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And a way to find when your not there?

What I got to do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when its all over?

wat have i got to do???
wat have i got to do???

Can someone please tell me????

cheers,
Teddy 1L1O1V1E1H1Y1

......

2004-08-06T21:25:00.000+07:00

Saw ganjie's quote of the moment.....felt like shit man....dun know y?? today felt super down. Even the temp staff at the SMU roadshow asked me y i so stone. Totally no mood for anything, maybe been thinking too much i guess. Thinking bout wat she had said and thinking this that and everything.

"the worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them", tell me bout it lah.....thats wat i'm going thru now and it really sux lor, SERIOUSLY!!! Its like she single but not available kind of thingy and it really feels like shit to be "not rejected" and "not accepted". Its like buying lottery and the lottery never did open.....dun know got win or not. i think u all know wat i mean rite?? Bai lui li bai, dou mei you kai.....(starting of song to "tu ran fa cai") haiz.....dun know wat to do liow lah.....is this a test??

Came back from work cos no one to go out wif and no one jio go anywhere.....so sian...last week also like that. Boring Friday.....went for jog before dinner and its the longest i had ran since ORD.....i ran to bishan park 1 or 2 i cant recall and actually ran the whole of the park 1 or 2 once. But realli shagged out after the run.....leg aching a bit now....maybe i overdid it lah. after that had a nice bath and ate dinner.....played my guitar a bit and here i am bloggin nonsense again.

"i'm not crazy,
i'm jus a little unwell,
i know rite now u cant tell,
but stay a while, and maybe then u'll see,
a different side of me.

i'm not crazy,
i'm jus a little impaired,
i know rite now u dont care,
but soon enuff u're gonna think of me,
and how i use to be..."

Unwell- Matchbox Twenty

cheers,
Teddy I1S1T1I1L1L1L1O1V1E1H1Y

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2004-08-03T21:30:00.000+07:00

I love someone.....i give and care unconditionally for that person. Iregardless of wat i get in return, and no, i'm not waiting for any answer. maybe i am but who doesnt? Saying goes "wat goes ard, comes ard". "its better to give than to receive", i love and give and expects something back at least. of cos at least something.....no matter how much even if its not equivalent. "no fish, shrimp also good". i give so i naturally expect some return.....even if u cant give me equivalent, at least give me that little nothing and i will be contented. Like i said, i am very very silly and foolish. In fact i admit i really really am silly and foolish, i believe in love, i believe in giving unconditionally when i love that person very much. It love that drive me to do all this and not the desire or need to have a relationship, cos if thats the case, i would have given up long ago. Maybe i havent grow up, not physically but mentally. I really have a lot more to learn and a lot more to experience. A friend told me to learn to love someone who loves you, but.....teach me how. Do i have to learn it the hard way? Wats so difficult to love and accept someone? Love is actually very very simple but ppl tends to think too much and make it complicated.....thats wat i think. Maybe she dun have a feeling for me, maybe not even that little bit. its jus a one sided thing and i'm the onli willing party. But i'm not realli prepared to give up or wait for someone to love me in order to love. Cos if i dont love and give, how am i ever going to receive anything? It works like nature, in a cycle, it goes rd and rd. Maybe the saying is rite, "dun chase after happiness, jus look straight and walk ahead, happiness will follow u" Said the mother dog to the puppy who kept running ard in circles trying to catch its own tail cos the mother dog mentioned b4 that the tail is like happiness. She ask me to move on and pursue my dream.....i am, i am pursuing my dream and while i do that, cant i even have someone to share my woes and happiness with along the way and when i do achieve my dream, i hope that person i shared the joys and sadness with is none other than u.....cos i love u, really.....i realli realli do.....if loving someone is realli that hard, then y love in the first place??

Cheers,
Teddy,the silly bear who love y@n alot alot alot.......

23rd of july @ Dbl O...

2004-07-30T22:15:00.000+07:00

my ganjie and i

me, loon(bmt fren) and his fren also @ Dbl O

fotos downloadable @ www.dbl-o.com

Cheers,
Teddy (LuvsHY)

A Long Week Jus Passed!!!

2004-07-30T21:25:00.000+07:00

Wat a long week this was.....and Finally the weekend is here. Doing roadshow at NUS the whole of this week and it totally shagged me out. So tired but also quite a good week cos dun have to stay in office everyday. I agree wif thomas, gals in singapore r getting pretty fine and wow, did i have a diabetic week in NUS.....but HY is still the one in my mind now......hehe i very zhuan yi one i tell u....overall its a fun week lah.

Found out during midweek that hy actually reads my blog. (cannot write bad things bout her liow haha) Was both happy and shocked to find out lah, that she actually bothers to read. (maybe too bored, thats y) Happy becos she will find out how i feel bout her and shocked cos this is suppose to be my personal diary kind of thing.....
(and she wont even let me take a peak into her small calender diary...kns -_-") but i dont mind lah, i respect her privacy. She had been working really hard and i very scared that she will fall sick. Hope that she stay healthy forever. She has this bad habit of staying up late at nite and its bad for health if she dont kick the habit. ( yan, remember the newspaper cutting we saw in NUH??) Try kicking the habit and sleep earlier can?? for my sake? Can??(i doubt so hehe)

I will be performing again this coming Sunday and the next coming sunday also from 3 to 5.30 in the afternoon. And same thing lah...super last min notice one. Ah du always like that one but also good lah, cos i dont mind also since sunday nothing on one lah hehe.....If free can come lor...

Cheers,
Teddy (u're still the 1, Y@n)

Its unbelievable

2004-07-27T20:35:00.000+07:00

Yup, i cant believe it either.....came home from work, and had the urge to actually go running and the thing is that i had not been doing that for almost 4 to 5 months liow since i ORD. My mum didnt cook, called hy and she need to do OT, called ganjie whose suppose to be at clementi but in the end she not going anymore, justin going home, so no khaki to eat dinner. Asked my mum to da bao something for me instead and went home early. In the bus on the way home, saw lots of ppl joggin and excercising and thought that how nice it would be to start excercising again like in NS. Now i know y thomas can get so unhappy when he dun get to exercise. Had a nice 40mins jog to Bishan park and back and surprisingly, i dun feel tired at all and my stamina is still intact cos i never stop thruout the run. And i feel so wonderful and fulfilling after the run. So was thinking of trying to do that every evening before dinner. Make it a Before Dinner Run.....The run totally destress me and i feel so good after sweating so much. One Word "SHIOK".

Wanted to watch Private Parts opening on 28th july at the esplanade but ant find khaki also.....looked thru sistic website last nite and wanted to actually buy the tics online so smsed hy to ask her if she will be free on sat nite. She never reply so i called her and she also never answer.....so in the end i didnt buy cos scared wait buy liow wat if she couldnt make it, who am i suppose to find someone to go wif? Cos she mentioned to me before that she wanted to watch it so maybe do something lor but in the end, she smsed me last nite ard 2 and told me that she had already bought the tics and she will be watching it wif vive.....and she had also bought tics to the moscow circus.....:( was so disappointed that she actually bought the tics. not that she not going wif me lah but its jus that she also never ask me anything bout whether i want to watch or anything..... :'(
y??? i dont know leh.....well i cant blame her lah...vive her best fren leh.....so i cant be jealous jus becos of that if not i will look totally like a chabo. wonder who she is going to the circus.....well i guess its vive again lor.....hehe.....well at least she's not going wif another guy rite??

Cheers,
Teddy:"512"!!

almost 10 yrs of frenship

2004-07-25T20:30:00.000+07:00

Attended my secondary school NPCC fren's gf 21st birthday party at costa sand pasir ris chalet last nite. It was sort of a fruitful nite as i did enjoy myself and it was realli nice to see all the frens from secondary school eca again. Although we met up quite often, (well, definitely more often than my secondary school classmates.) we still had so much to catch up. It had been a long time since i went to a chalet and i did not realli feel tired even after chionging on fri nite. But initially i didnt want to stay overnite but after some persuasion and psychoing by my frens, i drove the van which my fren rented back home, bath, change out of my contact lenses and headed straight back there.

Went back there and they started playing black jack and toking bout bad luck.....i join the game and during my first rd, the banker got a ban ban.....KNS....i betted one buck and lost 3 bucks instantly. And the rest started blaming me for joining in the game and seriously i feel that it was a mistake to join the game after all cos eventually, i lost all my coins worth of 5 bucks. I stopped playing after that....not that i hv no money lah but u know u suay liow u still want to continue play and lost meh? After a while, another fren also lost everything and he jio me go downstairs drink...and we had a relaxing conversation accompanied by the nite breeze and GIN TONIC.....super relaxing and we kind of sat there til ard 6 in the morning and chatted about BGR, and everything we can think of lah.....its been a realli long time since i stay awake all nite liow. I'm like totally destressed after the chalet trip.....glad i went and in fact alone, if not i wouldnt have stayed overnite. And we brought the period of our frenship up and to my surprised, 10 yrs had passed and we had known each other for 10 yrs liow and am i glad we still kept in contact and we are still such close frens. And no doubt, this frenship will never end. In fact we org a gathering every now and then during the festive seasons most of the time if not jus a nite out for dinner. I'm so lucky to have this bunch of frens and to them, i wish them happiness and health for as long as they live.....cheers, and hopefully ah lau will hold his traditionally wedding soon and we shall have another round of celebration again. This time, Bu zui bu gui, zui le bian wu gui......haha Toast to frenship.....cheers!!!

CHEERS,
Teddy Teo yong sen (luv y@n)

wah...been clubbing too much

2004-07-24T12:28:00.000+07:00

Dun know y, after i started working, been drinking or clubbing almost every weekend

and to tell u the truth, now sort of have this phobia for drinking liow esp tequila and whiskey.

whenever i smell them, i feel like puking. cannot lah, feel that something have to be done and

have to stop liow cos had been realli spending like mad cos of this kind of lifestyle....

Dun realli feel like clubbing one last nite, went for a company function last nite at robertson

walk(jus beside Dbl o DUH....) and my ganjie karen happen to forward me an sms saying that

if i show the guy at the entrance of Dbl o that sms b4 10, can get free entry and one drink to go

along also. That worths $23 bucks for gawd sake....wat good deal rite? so jus go lor since i went

to find out at ard 8 and the person gave me the chop and the drink voucher. And the lame thing

is that i even mass forward the sms to all thats in my hp address book who i know got chiong a

bit one but wat the heck, onli a few went. Of cos my ganjie on hearing that its not a fraud, rush

down immediately haha but last nite was quite nice. Had a nice and hearty chat wif my ganjie,

met and catch up wif one of my poly classmate whom i had not met for so long, and also a bmt

mate whom also responded to the sms haha.....and he thanked me big time like i did a great

deed like that..(in fact to think of it, i did :)) haha had a great time last nite but it would be better

if she was there also.

I smsed her when i woke up this afternoon informing her that i would go fetch her from

her school and after that we would go to my sec sch fren's chalet. then she replied for wat?.....-_-" phengz....yesterday jus told her and in fact had told her since the beginning of the week

and she can forget. Well, looks like i have to go alone liow lor. Wat to do? should i go fetch

her anyway and spend some time wif her?? hmmm...maybe i should lor...ermm.....see how lah huh??

cheers,
teddy (luv hy)

when will i reach my.....

2004-07-21T21:14:00.000+07:00

幸福车站
曲：方文良词：Benny.C 编：梁介洋

准备好了吗九月九号九点九分两个人就要出发
不带行李也不带牵挂向幸福车站出发

你看窗外啊像不像一张又一张飞过了莫内的画
让我眼睛也舍不得眨都因为有你对吧

艾菲尔铁塔都因为恋人的约定才浪漫的呀
不管到哪只要我身边有你就够了就够了就够了

幸福车站要两个人才能到达票根是一句回答
说跟着我你就不怕
橱窗里那件白纱何时为我穿上了它

幸福车站没有王子骑着白马只有真心的傻瓜
在终点为你盖个家
风雨都吹不垮爱到有了白发 You Still My Love

所有的恋人啊幸福站快到了
别忘了真心啊幸福站快到了
下站请带着它幸福站快到了

I do hope that they will announce upon arrival cos lots of ppl wont know when to alight. Rite??

cheers,
Teddy ( luv y@N)

habits.....

2004-07-20T21:11:00.000+07:00

Life's so dull and boring.....weeks after weeks of almost the same thing happening again and again day after day and the weekends always have to pass so damn bloddy fast. Hy says that the weekends passes fast is cos u enjoy the weekend but i beg to differ though. Cos i usually sleep away my weekends, hahaha :) Always sleep late on friday nites and then sleep til ard 2 to 3 on sat afternoon, wat fucking waste....i always feel but arent weekend suppose to be meant for u to rest?? And i realli wish i can see Hy more often lor.....she always seems so busy, wif her work and studies, feel that she dun even have time for herself. Not to mention that she have so many frens queueing up to meet her. Well, when u love someone, u have to accept who and wat she is and i love her so i have to accept the fact that she realli have lots of frens and like she said, she treasure frenship more than anything else..... :( well .....wat can i say?? At least she is trying..... Realli wish i can share some of her burdens and all that she is going thru now.

Now i have this habit of logging online everynite and check mail, friendster, animesuki to check for latest naruto and initial d, then follow by my own blog then to others blog to check for latest updates. It had realli turn into a habit liow lor. more of like a ritual or routine kind of habit liow. dun know whether its healthy or not leh haha -_-" lame rite?? maybe too free lor...maybe i should start reading up for my module liow starting in aug. well, really muz start liow lah if not wait too late liow then last min lagi jia lat. yup jus start reading up wont harm lor.....hmmm.... tok so much then go do it lah....-_-" lame!!!

Haiz......life sux??

yes it does.... but wif hy, life's sweet :D

cheers,
Hy's (teddy brand) alarm clock

Wat a Wonder(ful) World~......

2004-07-15T22:03:00.000+07:00

I wonder,.....

-when will she ever love me?
-when will she call me and talk to me?
-when will she SMS me??
-when will she ever care bout me like i care for her?
-when will we be together?
-is she thinking of me?
-does she miss me?
-y am i trying so hard when....
-what is she thinking?
-am i that bad?
-when will i fulfil my dream of opening a JAZZ cafe??
-when will i earn my first million?
-when will i own my own car?
-when will i jus be happy?
-when will all the stupid killings ard the world end?
-wat am i living for?
-does love really exist?
-wat is love?
-why am i alive?
-wat have i achieve so far in my life?
-wat am i working for?
-is everything i do getting me anywhere?
-am i getting anywhere?

Sometimes i realli wonder......theres so much doubts in life.
Wat a Wonder(ful) world indeed..
so sian

cheers,
Teddy

Peer pressure??

2004-07-13T20:22:00.000+07:00

hey hey.....look who we have here....think kena influenced by me lah haha. justin foo's blog.....check it out from my links. Well, dont know leh, but i feel that writing blog is the electronic way of writing a diary or a journal of some kind. It definitely make me feel a lot better during my down days where i would post all my problems and thots and hopefully share wif the world and get some advice in the midst of it. I feel that its nice to share ur thots wif someone who would bother to visit ur blog stie and read all the shit u have typed and understand ur feeling at that moment of time. Well, at least u know that u'r not alone in this world to have had this problem.....agreed?? We are human after all and sometimes we succumb to emotions and feelings without knowing. well, at least i know i am one of them.....

Was on a crowded bus, way home from bugis after passing cheques to frens, and this guy who sits beside me, toking on his hp. the irritating thing is how he use the phone. using his nokia hp, everytime he speaks, he have to bring the phone from his ears to the front of his mouth and speak into the mic of the phone.....how fucking LAME can this guy get man....y?? scared the other party cannot hear izzit?? or is the other party hearing impaired? y have to listen to the phone and bring in front of his face to speak?? no wonder everytime i listen to phone calls, it always sounds so loud.....wonder wat this ppl been thinking leh.....yr 2004 with such advance technology and ppl have to insult the technology of the information age.....how sad.....i think the inventor of mobile phone will kill himself if he sees how ppl are utilising his invention like that. and thats not the onli person i saw doing that lor.....well i mean the mic of these mobile works so well that it picks up even the background noise of the surrounding while using it lor....and also hor....u seen ppl using handsfree set while holding mobile phone in one hand?? can someone explain to me what is the meaning of HANDSFREE??? Idiots leh these ppl.....total insult to technology.....i jus hope i wont see anyone holding their mobile phone in their hand while using bluetooth handsfree set.

Cheers,
Teddy(177155117G Hy) ;)

Love??Wat is love??

2004-07-09T11:33:00.000+07:00

Went to SMU today to do notebook distribution. Was doing it for the past few days also lah and today, when i was jus suppose to step out of my void deck, it started to rain realli heavily. So LL, went back up home and got a small foldable umbrella (wat to do? if not sure wet one and have to reach there on time. although i reached there a bit late lah) and the stupid thing is i so BIG size and carries such big bag and the stupid umbrella so small..... but never realli got wet lah..my bag did haha!!

Reached SMU and ard 10 plus to 11, started to have runny nose. feel like a flu coming up lor and after that, feel damn sick for the whole day. used up all my tissue and still have to stay inside aircon room and have to run up and down and got a bit wet. like that how not to get sick??. after that feel sick for the whole day lor and still have to work late.....been working late since Monday lor...getting tired and sick of working man....haha so fast...jus started two months ago onli.

Visited thomas's blog again and found out he realli so free that he can go jogging, go bank, go look for his mardder and some more go orchard road jalan jalan. envy him so much...how i wish i have all that time. Then read my ganjie's blog also and hers was a damn long blog explaining wat true love is.....well, quite tru lah but dont know lah. cos i had been trying so hard and nothing seems to work for me lah.....(YoU cAn'T mAkE sOmEoNe LuV yOu, aLl YoU cAn Do Is Be SoMeOnE wHo CaN bE lOvEd, ThE rEsT iS uP tO tHe PeRsOn To ReAlIzE yOuR wOrTh~)-->last sentence from my ganjie's blog. How long will it take her to realize my worth?? maybe she will never find out lor.....it really feels so fucked up to love someone so much and not get anything back lah seriously. but i never expected anything back also lah.....Well, i never had a GF before and was never realli been in a relationship b4, and i realli want her to be my first..(Pathetic rite?? so old liow still no gf yet) maybe i am realli a person so unlovable bah. Wat is it huh?? the fact that i'm ugly, too big size?? fat?? my face, my body?? or izzit simply my character?? can someone enlighten me?? Wats wrong wif me?? i really like and love her so much and i care so much about her.....well, wat to do??i guess its jus me lah huh??

going to cut hair this sunday.....hmmmm wat color should i dye huh?? any suggestion anyone??

cheers,
Teddy (IHY)

Which is the most hardworking race??

2004-07-07T21:21:00.000+07:00

Well so much about races and Fucking muslims and watsoever.....(found out today that lots of ppl are racist against malays, wonder why also) And my dear fren thomas touch on the diligence issue that malays are not a hardworking bunch.....well i feel its more of the culture or the environment the malays are brought up in. Some malays are very hardworking one.....well as for indians, some of them also very hardworking.

I was in a cab going back to office from SMU today, i saw two indians standing on the road divider looking thru a elevation device.( everytime u see construction workers looking thru something on a tripod??) Both of them wearing luminous vest and safety helmet....and i dont see any major construction nearby, and apparently, one of them was the supervisor of some kind teaching the other one to use the thingy. and the supervisor, he was actually holding a Hammer in one of his hand. Two indian guy, in the middle of the road, wearing safety helmet and one of them holding a hammer. Then this thot came into my mind, was the hammer used to knock the other indian's head who was actually learning to use the thingy when he made mistakes?? Maybe that explains the safety helmet which i dont see the neccessity of wearing one.

well so much for all the stupid stuff on races and Muslims.....was very busy as usual like last week and the week before last and the week before last, and before i know it, two more days before the weekend again....time passes super fast when u r busy....its like in a blink of an eye lah realli....Well, realli learnt a lot from my current job lah...gone thru a lot in such short time and i tell myself that all this is part of life and treat this as a training for my future endeavour. I can say that i'm truly lucky to be able to acquire this challenging job and be able to learn and also allowed to make mistakes and not get into deep shit. And of cos, i will definitely learn thru all the mistakes i had commited and pick up new skills and knowledge on the way.....Hopefully they will make me a better person in life and help me in my future business venture. Dont ask me what business i am going into cos i also dun know....i believe in chances and opportunities. So til my chances and opportunities pass by, i will have to keep learning and make sure that when the chances appears, the mistakes i made will help me by not repeating them again. Dun be afraid to make mistakes, learn from them. Mistakes are our teacher of life. Make mistakes while u r still young, cos when u grow older, it might be too late when forgiveness is not an option anymore.

cheers,
Teddy (177155HY)

KNN.....Fucking sick lor!!!!!!

2004-07-04T20:40:00.000+07:00

Pls be informed that this video clip r not for the weak hearted. It is REAL!!! The inside contents of cuting the head off LIVE. Close it if U do not like.Pls beware.The murder starts from 2 min 30 secs.. infront is all talk and talk and talk.....

http://singapore20plus.org/temp/KoreanBeheaded.wmv

After watching the clip and also the previous beheading of the american guy, I am totally disappointed in mankind.....after centuries of civilization, are we worth it?? I jus dont understand everything.....and it onli happens in muslim countries like in indonesia where it happened before also. Now i totally agree wif my fren thomas whose blog highlighted the social problems created by the particular race. Why cant america jus fucking throw them a nuclear warhead and wipe them out?? Cleanse them off the face of earth. So that ppl there dont have to be beheaded one by one. The sick thing is how they can do it to live human.....and with the chanting.....seriously when i frist saw the beheading of the american, i totally cant sleep man. Wat is happening to the world? Did their religion teach them or even encourage them to do it?? Totally dun understand. Can someone Please enlighten me?? Wat exactly is Islam teaching those ppl.....its not that i hate the race or have anything against the religion lah but after watching the two totally sick clips, i realli wonders. Can someone pls do something about it to prevent all this stupid things from happening again?? Fucking crazy lor these ppl.....Kill them all lah....they are all pollutants....cleanse them off the earth surface.....WTF? AAArrrrrggghhhh!!!! WTF is happening to the world???? Civilization??? wat is civilization???

Fuck the M@*l1ms,
Teddy

Boring Fri nite and sat morning but a fulfilling sat nite......:)

2004-07-04T01:57:00.000+07:00

So sian.....fri work til evening 8 then leave office. Work snowballed so much that i have to get justin's help to finish my work partially, PARTIALLY only leh.....die lah the coming week sure more hectic.....after that went homefor dinner cos promise mum that me will be home for dinner lor.....so tired and money all used up so never really go anywhere lah. jus deposited paycheck after left office....monday then can see the balance. Slept early on fri nite at ard 11.....considered early liow cos since started working, most fri nite go out til late then return..wont sleep til ard 2 to 3 in the morning....and guess wat, woke up super early on sat morning......nv go out also cos no one jio go anywhere and also have to attend lesson at 6 so whole morning and afternoon do nothing. Went muchuan early to watch Wang Fu Yue Tuan and peggy xu zhe pei live performance @ muchuan (got pic to see below) Damn crowded lor....so long nv see muchuan go so much ppl liow seriously. And wang fu really impress me with their wierd but fun music.....especially the guitarist...super cute and farney....going to buy their album liow...after that go lesson and learnt to sing Eason's Shiong Mei....followed by Steamboat buffet dinner @ marina south wif platoon mates.....damn fun cos we were like KPKB the whole nite.....like in camp like that....haha then after the dinner no where to go liow so settled wif bowling....had three games and ended wif sore fingers liow....but my bowling skills not bad leh..haha for a guy so long time nv play lah...haha...Gan jie, want to challange me?? anytime leh....wont lose to u liow this time. So when r we going bowling again?? i anytime onz u one hahaha!!! :D

Cheers,
Teddy(5ti1LuvHY)

wang fu band live in muchuan

peggy and wang fu

bowling @ marina south after steamboat buffet dinner

Finally......a movie definitely worth catching... :)

2004-06-29T00:15:00.000+07:00

good movie

jus as i was giving up on the movie industry, this korean movie saved it....Titled, Windstruck, although i feel not better than the previous gig, My sassy girl, but can be on par.....besides having the same female lead, the story line was in a similar plot but different in a way that this time the female lead was more emotional....Sorri gan jie, that nite u suggested that we go catch it?? actually i wanted to watch it with someone else....hehe hope u dun mind huh!!! Dun worry i will ask raymond to go watch it wif u.....if u like my sassy girl, u will definitely like this one. HY says its better than my sassy girl but i dont agree....y? its not as funny lah although its has its fair bit of comedy in it.....but its definitely more touching than my sassy girl. watch out for the ending scene.....i'm not going to reveal too much cos it will spoil the whole show. PPL, go catch the show....worth every cents, especially if u watched it wif ur special someone ;) the next movie i'm actually looking forward to is actually Brotherhood...also a korean movie. no not spiderman2....such lame show....well the koreans sure make good movies nowadays huh?? wonder wat took it so long for them to surface in singapore!!!

cheers,
Teddy

Introducing.....my daughter named LYNN :)

2004-06-27T13:07:00.000+07:00

My daughter lynn, haha cute or not??

Time reali flies --=@=--

2004-06-23T21:20:00.000+07:00

Never realize that time realli pass so fast when u r busy.....its like its the weekend liow in a blink of an eye....and the weekend always have to pass so damn blody fast. Never even rest enuff then have to start work again liow....WTF!!! Had realli been a busy week last week and recalling that today is WED liow. Two days more to the weekend again and wah....no wonder people age so fast cos time realli wait for no one. Hence, feel that we muz always try to use our time wisely....-_-"(spend all my time working lah) and treasure every minutes and seconds. Be happy that u can open ur eyes and wake up every morning. in fact we should be gratful that we were given this chance to live every morning, every day. So we shall not wait for time also.....in fact we muz get ahead of time if not, travel with time and not lag behind.....To the one i love, time is not something we can afford to waste, muz treasure every seconds of our life cos we never know wat will happen tomolo and whether someone will still be by ur side at the end of the day. so hope that u can treasure the time i spent on u and not let it go to waste cos the time i spend thinking of u is priceless and can never be retrieved. Let not the heart of someone who love u go to waste, as he will never always be there for u. He will, only when u know how to treasure his time and effort. u have onli one life so live it wisely. To all the ppl out there, Look ard u and u might jus find that special someone who r willing to spend their precious time thinking of u and treasure them cos they r hard to come by and they might jus disappear the next day. Dont bother to spend time on someone who wont even spare a second on u!!! Time is priceless and can never be saved or accumulated. Spend it wisely and meaningfully. :)

cheers,
Teddy

WORST movie ever watched......:(

2004-06-19T01:40:00.000+07:00

hey ppl, if u r thinking of catching a movie during the weekend or even weekdays, Pls do not watch the japanese horror titled: "Seance". released on 17th june, its a total crap....not even worth $6.50...if i know the show gonna be that way, offer me free i also wont watch...realli...total waste of time and resources...realli wondering how it made its way to singapore screens. Out of 5 stars, i give ZERO, KOSONG!!! however if u r still going to watch it, well then good luck and dun say i never inform huh!!!!!

cheers,
Teddy

HaPpieSt Day!!! :)

2004-06-12T21:28:00.000+07:00

Wow, this is one of my happiest day in my life so far. I shall describe everything from the beginning of the day to now. Actually i met up wif her last nite wif her frens and one fren of my for dinner lah. Although we didnt tok much thru out the nite but it was a relief to see that she looked better than a week ago. Was realli tired lah and this morning have to go to Ngee ann poly to set up things for Mon's notebook distribution. So sian...cos usually sat morning can sleep til late late one. but anyway, i woke her up this morning for her checkup....she supposed to go for medical checkup but when i called her at ard 12 plus, she said she never go for the checkup and i asked if she coming for my performance later and she said see how lor....KNS....waste my effort to wake her up but i dun mind....hehe.....then rush down to Muchuan to practice for the performance....expecting that she wont turn up.....and in the midst of practicing, my gan jie karen sms me and said she couldnt make it and apologised. Bit disappointed lor but have to understand that something impt might have cropped up lah. so no prob.

this time my performance was at Apollo centre muchuan. Partnered wif ah du and my fellow course mate called jenix. Jenix is a very good guitar player....upon hearing that we will be performing together, she asked me for the song list i'm goin to sing for today one week in advance and she listened to the songs and practice them. she's very good and we practiced on last tuesday...everything went smooth.

then ah du told me he can onli help us play for the first hour and the rest of it we have to manage it by ourself. we r a bit worried that we cannot managed lah haha. and jus as ah du is leaving for his class (he teaches), i asked him to help me play one song, Tian Tian Xiang Ni, and dedicated it to her even when she not there. i didnt mention her name which everyone asking me to say, i jus said that i'm singing this for the owner of Gou xiong brand alarm clock.....haha onli she knows wat this means.....anyway we had a short break after ah du left and went on to perform after. And as we were performing, my sec sch frens starts coming in....realli happy to see them....and after them, she came wif kk and vive. I was so surprised......in fact very very surprised and she is wearing her pink dress and she looked so good. i'm so happy at that moment that word cant describe my esctasy. After i saw her, i did my best in all the songs i sang and Fwah.....happy til dun know wat to say....
after a while, a tan guy called jian hua came on stage suddenly....i thot who he is and he turned out to be a muchuan singer who sings on sunday nites. and ah du never mentioned anything.....hai wo sia dao. anyway the fact that she came for my performance realli made my day. And i did feel that i improved a bit since my first performance lor. Verry Verry happy though can be better if my gan jie turned up and SHE complete her checkup wif negative results. Still this is the happiest day of my life.....and also mus mention ang hock beng who came last min...realli super last min...but at least he came lah haha....ok shared my happy day and my performance ended well....and for those whose present on my performance, any feedback how i can improve?? Pls leave behind ur comments in my shoutbox or friendster...thanks...

cheers,
Teddy

a song i wrote

2004-06-08T23:46:00.000+07:00

During one of my vocal lesson in muchuan, my teacher ask us to do an assignment to help us understand the elements of a song more. Elements in sense of the feeling of the whole song, the meaning of the lyrics and how u would want to express urself in a song. We were given a simple tune and asked to become, 1.lyricist, 2.MTV Director for the song and 3.Singer. the tune goes like this: Do Re Mi Do Re Mi
Do Re Mi Do Do
Do Re Mi Do Re Mi
Do Re Mi Do Do

Do Ti La So Do Ti La So
So Fa Mi Re Do Re Mi
Do Ti La So Do Ti La So
So Fa Mi Re Do Do
Its a very simple and nice tune when played wif musical instruments. And we were given a week to complete the Assignment and have to present it during next lesson. This is my lyrics, written when i was thinking of her, missing her. It goes like this:
tian hen hei Feng hen ji
chuang wai hai xia ze yu
xian zai ni zai na li
wo zhen de xiang zhe ni

wo nao hai li quan dou shi ni
mei tian mei ye zai xiang ni
xiang gao shu ni que mei yong qi
wo zhen de hen ai ni

haha it sounds funny though when u sing it out without music support. But thats all i can think of. Two of my classmates wrote about school and another one wrote about being cheated by someone she loved. well, when writing lyrics, ppl always put in wat is on their mind at that very moment as one of my classmate who wrote about school had actually jus finished his exams. And he wrote something about the feeling when waiting for results to be posted. I told her about the assignment and actually wanted to sing it to her and ask her how it sounds but in the end i didnt. Didnt dare to and it sounds so awful also but strangely when i presented it and sing with her in my mind, it was the best song ever.....haha -_-" cos if u want to be a good singer, u will have to inject feelings into songs. thats wat the assignment was for, to help us notice it. So, lesson for those who wants to know more about singing, there u go. Do some homework and study the song lyrics and try to feel wat the lyricist feel when he/she was writing the song and inject that feeling into the song and it will sound very good. not like in ktv where u jus read and follow the word without feeling one.....lesson learned??

Cheers,
Teddy, the silly singing bear -_-"

Deprived of seeing someone......

2004-06-06T17:25:00.000+07:00

" I may not understand watever u r going thru,
i jus know that i realli miss and cant wait to see u.
even if its jus a phone conversation,
or even a short SMS,
i will be happy and glad when i see ur name.
u can shut urself and not care about anything in the world,
but pls dont deprive me of seeing u,
as a look at ur face realli heals,
and makes my life looks more real.
i will try to give u care,
regardless of the return.
as giving care to someone dont cost me anything,
but its a bonus if in return i get something.
is this love?
or is this jus another blind infatuation?
probably, possibly, maybe.
the greatest thing u'll ever learn, is jus to love and be loved in return??
when will i ever learn?
i've never been thru anything like this, at least not so intense....
its all emotional they say but realli its not something u can control.
its easy for someone else to say and advice, but to realli act on it is another issue.
my advice for her?
go back to him if u realli think he is worth it and that he will provide all tender love and care. if not no point dwelling over it for so long. as his heart might already been given to someone whom he is going to provide all that.
i guess u know him more as u had been wif him for so long, if he realli had been missing in ur life for so long, why r u clinging on to it?? do u think he realli still care, when u r crying ur heart out, i guess he's out partying.
this is jus a blind guess, but seriously, is he realli worth it??
there is no lack of guys willing to give u care and concern u need.
and i am one of the silly ones.....giving blindly and quietly without expecting any returns.
how silly? how silly i am?? well, very, i guess? dont even have the courage to say it out.....jus few simple words is all it take to express myself and here i am typing everything out in words. i'm not good in words when it come to this kind of thing.....as good as dumb huh??
to the one who i'm writing all this to?? i realli like u a lot and i am sure u knew it long ago.....a chance is all i ask.....to take care of u and make u happy. may i??

cheers,
Teddy the silly bear -_-"

dream....illusion....mirage.....watever!!!

2004-06-03T09:12:00.000+07:00

Dreamt of her last nite. Dreamt that we were together and it feels so good.....we were really "together". How i wish i never wake up from that dream. Heard that when u dream of something, reality always turn out the opposite way...wah!! dont know true or not...den if let me choose, i rather not have this dream at all. Maybe think too much lor then dream of her, theres a saying like "Ri you suo si, ye you suo meng"....

Now become her alarm clock liow. Every morning give her morning call cos she been late for work lately. dun know wats bothering her also. Think she too used to sleeping late then got this problem of inability of waking up early in the morning. Met her last sat and found out she had been sick for quite sometime liow, sore throat and cough and runny nose. she looks so sick and tired lor....dark eye ring also very visible. can see she have not been sleeping well for the past few weeks. haiz...... if i can i rather let her take sleeping pills or worst force her to sleep early as i know she wont one. she would rather watch tv or pack her accessories or clothings....
but now i am obligated to give her morning call every morning i also happy..... cos would get to hear her sleepy voice every morning realli makes my day haha.....too obsessed liow.... well at least happy for a while lor.....can someone get me out of this?? jiu jiu wo bah!!! being happy of becoming an alarm clock also happy....i think i need a shrink liow.....anyone can intro one to me??

cheers,
Teddy

Realli miss those carefree Days.....-_-"

2004-05-29T02:01:00.000+07:00

Wah......realli realli miss those days when i was still looking for job a month or so ago. Realli carefree and everyday sleep late and wake up late. Every Tue and thur would go all the way to CCK to swim wif my swimming kakis. Would mit up wif my fren at ard 11 at yew tee mrt station and take a bus there while another fren of mine whos very anti-social, i wld say, would be in the pool liow when we reach. I would swim for 30 laps. yes 30 laps, which usually took me ard one and the half hours to finish. 30 laps in terms of to and fro along the length of the pool is consider one lap. Siong lah but enjoy it thoroughly cos after that we would go over to the Spa Pool where they have jacuzzi and apend another half an hr there. And i got so tan in the hot afternoon sun that my dad reprimanded me and say i look like banghala. Then after the swim we would have our lunch at either yew tee or coffee chop near Lot1.

Cos workload getting heavier liow and roadshows coming up soon so stress also building up. Life's like that lah, when u r in it, u wont appreciate it. Its onli u gone thru it and look back then will find how lucky u were back then. Like when i was still serving the NS, everyday will be like thinking when can ORD. But now i find NS life very carefree cos onli have to act on orders. Now working liow, no more such things. And thinking back, how fun NS life was. Looking back at all the photos taken realli never fails to make me laugh or smile. All the stupid and funny things we did, joking ard like nobodies business, shouting ard and all the fightings also.

But nevertheless, we still have to look ahead. Looking back is good sometimes but we still have to move on. Life still gotta carry on and i guess we cant do anything about it. So, Lets move on and keep searching and work towards our goal in life or simply jus live life everyday until u vanish from the face of earth. Realli wondering now whether the scenarios in the movie, " the day after tomorrow", will happen or not. Wat do u ppl out there think??? @_@??

Cheers,
Teddy (nothing to write, write crap)-_-"

sian lor....karen say i never add anything new.....type lor

2004-05-27T21:50:00.000+07:00

muz i do this everyday?? Some kind of daily diary?? Well??? Dun know whether i should be happy or not. Last nite i sms her and asked her " hows everything?" Never expect any reply from her lah so jus lie in bed about to sleep lor then out of sudden, kena shocked by my phone ringing sound. Cos its always very quiet in my rm so wont expect any sudden noise lah. wokened up by the phone lor, its her.
" wei, u going to sleep soon? cos i going down stair for a jog", she claimed at ard 11+pm
" huh, go joggin at this time? u crazy ah?" i answered.
" no lah very sian anyway can i call u back after my jog?" she asked.
" ok lor, jus give me a call lah when u finish" i replied.
actually i damn tired liow cos had a sumptious steamboat dinner wif my colleagues and so damn filling. went back to sleep when she called my hp. i rejected the call and used my rm phone to call her. chatted til 1 plus and she ask me to give her a morning call in the morning. Well, glad she still alive lah cos she ahsnt realli been responding to my smses. Dun know lah.....she need to wake up a bit lah!!

very tired, dun even know wat i'm typing liow. Need to sleep soon if not tomolo morning cannot wake up liowz. Well wat i can say is no matter how tired i am, i still wont mind if she call me in the middle of the nite one cos i realli miss her that much. Miss her smile, miss her voice, miss her everything lah. Maybe i'm too obsessed wif her. Fwah! cannot, muz do sumthing bout it liowz....this cant go on.....hmmmm...any suggestions??

cheers,
Teddy

Feel So lucky!!!

2004-05-25T21:57:00.000+07:00

We muz all learn to appreciate life as it is. Suddenly i feel so lucky. Got into my current job as a Project Coordinator in Jardine OneSolution(JOS) withour having to go thru any interview or watsoever, the kind of job where u cant find elsewhere, amount of things to be picked up and learned in the company, chance to perform in Muchuan(the Ark) where a lot of ppl dream about. if all the above is not enough, then u will never be satisfied with watever in life and i urge u to go get urself an insurance and go commit suicide after a year.

Dont know leh....suddenly so much feelings rush into my head. Life can actually be wonderful but it all depend on how u want it lor. One sad day is a day passed, one happy day is a day passed, so y not make ur day a happy one? I know, easier said than done u might say but wats so difficult, try to laugh or smile at least once a day. Try to make other ppl's day.

One experience i had in bugis food court. Met a fren for lunch and she went ahead to order her food while i wait and jagar the seats. Table full of used utensils and cockeries. The cleaner auntie who looked ard 40+ came along and started clearing the table. Her face huh....hwah.....think someone owe her billions of dollars nv pay ah!! Then dun know y lah that day in good mood, i told the auntie :" auntie, xie xie ni, xin ku ni leh". Hwah and u know wat happened? No, she didnt throw the leftover fishball soup at me.... instead, she gave me a big grin. The most wonderful smile i ever seen on a cleaner auntie face b4. Like she tio beh bioh like that. Realli and i feel so wonderful after that and kept thinking about the incident for the entire day feeling good. She passed by a few times while i was lunching away and smile to me. No lah, i dont think she interested in me lah. Couldnt be one lah...;) haha. well thats it for making other ppl's day and in turn making ur day. Enjoy everyday, be happy every morning that u actually have a chance to open ur eyes and have the chance to live another day. Make ur day today!!!!

cheers,
Teddy

wow, my first..my debut...my premiere...my virgin...blog

2004-05-23T15:29:00.000+07:00

Well well....guess a guy like me shldnt realli be doing this but wat to do, too boring liow. Things like this happens when frens ard u onli call/jio u when they need u. Ironic huh?? and at the end of the day they blame u for not calling or contacting them. But i guess ppl need their own time and space also lah huh??

well, thats me i guess, someone who dont realli express my feelings openly. Someone who wld rather keep everything to myself (sometimes). Thats y the one i liked/loved wont know my feeling towards her and i will be so miserable. Keep thinking too much and making myself sad and down for the entire week. Try too hard to make it known w/o expressing it out verbally by caring and showing concern...in the end....remember i came across this phrase which i agree totally, "men express their feelings thru actions instead of words". well, that totally describes me.

Really miss her lor.....been so long since i last seen her( to be exact, ard 2 weeks onli lah). She agreed to meet me for clubbing wif few of my frens she knows last fri but on fri she msn me and say she got an appt and couldnt make it and that she wants to minimise clubbing cos of her coursework and job. Ok, its fine wif me. She said she would come for my debut performance at Safra Muchuan on sat nite and she even said she written it down on her organiser. But on sat, i sms her and she never replied. Thot she would come and was realli looking forward to seeing her but she didnt turn up even though i smsed her the exact location which of cos she nv replied. She never even called..... :( I was disappointed. Even though i enjoyed the experience of my first performance at muchuan but i feel that i will enjoy it more if she was there. After the performance, i smsed her again and again she nv reply. So i called her and asked her where she is. She said :" Devils, jus reached onli" which was ard 11 plus alrdy.(and she say she want to minimise clubbing).
"With who", i asked.
"Vive and a sec sch gal fren, u?", she claimed
"still at muchuan", i replied
"wah so late still there", she commented
"yup, going for supper wif the new frens from muchuan, u enjoy urself then", i said
"ok bye", she said and hung up.

well, i tried not to think about it so much but when someone u liked so much didnt even bother to reply ur sms, the feeling sux. On Fri, she msn me in office and ask me if i had replied her on the digicam question. I replied that she didnt asked me, and she asked me if i have a digicam which she could borrow for her brother to take some snapshots of his shop to be posted on web. i agreed intially but advice her on some things which i want to clarify. i asked her to be careful and take care of the cam cos my mum paid for the cam and i will be lending it to her without my mum's knowledge and she would have to return it asap after use to prevent my mum from finding out. As there was once my sis lend a cam to her fren and upon returning the cam was faulty and my mum made a big fuss out of it. As i dont wan things like that to happen as u know lah, it get very sensitive when it comes to money and stuff like this and cos i liked her so much, i dont wan things like this to happen. Then she said:" nvm lor, i also scared i spoilt it, its ok i can borrow from other frens". Am i wrong to make things so clear? Is she angry or upset that i brought that up? I dun know lah.....i even offer to help the brother take photo and send it over to her. can someone advice me if i'm wrong?? I realli like her alot lor and she jus ended a relationship. I understand she needs time and it realli hurt me when i hear or see her cry. But does she realise that i like her alot? i dont know? do i realli have to spell it out? isnt it obvious?? Can someone tell me wat to do.....missing her like fuck and been thinking of her so much that its realli going to ruin my life. Now i understand the meaning of " bei ai shi xing fu, ai ren shi tong ku".

Lastly on my debut performance at Muchuan Safra Town Club. It was realli rush lah the schedule, Ah Du, one of the singer there informed me of the performance onli on last wed's nite @ ard 11 plus and i was suppose to meet him for training the following nite after work. and i didnt even have time to search for lyrics of songs i want 2 sing, did a crash search and came out wif a few songs which i dont feel its enough. I was teamed up wif Ah Du who play the keyboard for us, a fellow female new singer( that nite was her second performance) called qiu qun, a nice guy who had been in muchuan for a couple of yrs who is suppose to do all the toking that nite cos we r new and would not realli know how to make the show interesting. his name is Jie Hao. Well, i did screwed up a few times and luckily theres not much audience present. onli a few tables occupied. I was having my vocal class from 6.30 to 7.30 that nite and the performance is like at 8. I rushed over w/o dinner and the worst thing is i didnt even have the chance to practice wif qiuqun. We sang three duets in total and was quite impressed wif the first two in fact. Ni zui zhen gui by Jackie Cheung and Gao Hue Jun, and Wu Ding by Jay chou and Landy. the last one which is suppose to be our finale song was a disaster cos ah du played it in a wierd kind of way and i couldnt realli catch up with the tune and key, and also cos of lack of practice wif qiuqun....but its all over. my overall feeling? I have a long way to go and so much to learn. Brought along my digicam hoping to capture a few pics of my debut performance but couldnt cos no one to do it for me while performing. but i did take a few after that. Qiuqun left early to catch a bus so miss a chance to take one wif her but nonetheless i can always take one wif her some other day bah. Went for supper with ah du, jie hao, qing shan(head waiter i guess) and alicia(Lady boss of Muchuan) and she was kind enuff to drive everyone back including me whose house is most out ot the way.....realli appreciated it... Really glad and feel so lucky to have a chance to experience all this. Guess life dun realli sux after all, u jus have to make it count ;)

Cheers,
Teddy