Realli miss those carefree Days.....-_-"

Wah......realli realli miss those days when i was still looking for job a month or so ago. Realli carefree and everyday sleep late and wake up late. Every Tue and thur would go all the way to CCK to swim wif my swimming kakis. Would mit up wif my fren at ard 11 at yew tee mrt station and take a bus there while another fren of mine whos very anti-social, i wld say, would be in the pool liow when we reach. I would swim for 30 laps. yes 30 laps, which usually took me ard one and the half hours to finish. 30 laps in terms of to and fro along the length of the pool is consider one lap. Siong lah but enjoy it thoroughly cos after that we would go over to the Spa Pool where they have jacuzzi and apend another half an hr there. And i got so tan in the hot afternoon sun that my dad reprimanded me and say i look like banghala. Then after the swim we would have our lunch at either yew tee or coffee chop near Lot1.

Cos workload getting heavier liow and roadshows coming up soon so stress also building up. Life's like that lah, when u r in it, u wont appreciate it. Its onli u gone thru it and look back then will find how lucky u were back then. Like when i was still serving the NS, everyday will be like thinking when can ORD. But now i find NS life very carefree cos onli have to act on orders. Now working liow, no more such things. And thinking back, how fun NS life was. Looking back at all the photos taken realli never fails to make me laugh or smile. All the stupid and funny things we did, joking ard like nobodies business, shouting ard and all the fightings also.

But nevertheless, we still have to look ahead. Looking back is good sometimes but we still have to move on. Life still gotta carry on and i guess we cant do anything about it. So, Lets move on and keep searching and work towards our goal in life or simply jus live life everyday until u vanish from the face of earth. Realli wondering now whether the scenarios in the movie, " the day after tomorrow", will happen or not. Wat do u ppl out there think??? @_@??

Cheers,
Teddy (nothing to write, write crap)-_-"

sian lor....karen say i never add anything new.....type lor

muz i do this everyday?? Some kind of daily diary?? Well??? Dun know whether i should be happy or not. Last nite i sms her and asked her " hows everything?" Never expect any reply from her lah so jus lie in bed about to sleep lor then out of sudden, kena shocked by my phone ringing sound. Cos its always very quiet in my rm so wont expect any sudden noise lah. wokened up by the phone lor, its her.
" wei, u going to sleep soon? cos i going down stair for a jog", she claimed at ard 11+pm
" huh, go joggin at this time? u crazy ah?" i answered.
" no lah very sian anyway can i call u back after my jog?" she asked.
" ok lor, jus give me a call lah when u finish" i replied.
actually i damn tired liow cos had a sumptious steamboat dinner wif my colleagues and so damn filling. went back to sleep when she called my hp. i rejected the call and used my rm phone to call her. chatted til 1 plus and she ask me to give her a morning call in the morning. Well, glad she still alive lah cos she ahsnt realli been responding to my smses. Dun know lah.....she need to wake up a bit lah!!

very tired, dun even know wat i'm typing liow. Need to sleep soon if not tomolo morning cannot wake up liowz. Well wat i can say is no matter how tired i am, i still wont mind if she call me in the middle of the nite one cos i realli miss her that much. Miss her smile, miss her voice, miss her everything lah. Maybe i'm too obsessed wif her. Fwah! cannot, muz do sumthing bout it liowz....this cant go on.....hmmmm...any suggestions??

cheers,
Teddy

Feel So lucky!!!

We muz all learn to appreciate life as it is. Suddenly i feel so lucky. Got into my current job as a Project Coordinator in Jardine OneSolution(JOS) withour having to go thru any interview or watsoever, the kind of job where u cant find elsewhere, amount of things to be picked up and learned in the company, chance to perform in Muchuan(the Ark) where a lot of ppl dream about. if all the above is not enough, then u will never be satisfied with watever in life and i urge u to go get urself an insurance and go commit suicide after a year.

Dont know leh....suddenly so much feelings rush into my head. Life can actually be wonderful but it all depend on how u want it lor. One sad day is a day passed, one happy day is a day passed, so y not make ur day a happy one? I know, easier said than done u might say but wats so difficult, try to laugh or smile at least once a day. Try to make other ppl's day.

One experience i had in bugis food court. Met a fren for lunch and she went ahead to order her food while i wait and jagar the seats. Table full of used utensils and cockeries. The cleaner auntie who looked ard 40+ came along and started clearing the table. Her face huh....hwah.....think someone owe her billions of dollars nv pay ah!! Then dun know y lah that day in good mood, i told the auntie :" auntie, xie xie ni, xin ku ni leh". Hwah and u know wat happened? No, she didnt throw the leftover fishball soup at me.... instead, she gave me a big grin. The most wonderful smile i ever seen on a cleaner auntie face b4. Like she tio beh bioh like that. Realli and i feel so wonderful after that and kept thinking about the incident for the entire day feeling good. She passed by a few times while i was lunching away and smile to me. No lah, i dont think she interested in me lah. Couldnt be one lah...;) haha. well thats it for making other ppl's day and in turn making ur day. Enjoy everyday, be happy every morning that u actually have a chance to open ur eyes and have the chance to live another day. Make ur day today!!!!

cheers,
Teddy

wow, my first..my debut...my premiere...my virgin...blog

Well well....guess a guy like me shldnt realli be doing this but wat to do, too boring liow. Things like this happens when frens ard u onli call/jio u when they need u. Ironic huh?? and at the end of the day they blame u for not calling or contacting them. But i guess ppl need their own time and space also lah huh??

well, thats me i guess, someone who dont realli express my feelings openly. Someone who wld rather keep everything to myself (sometimes). Thats y the one i liked/loved wont know my feeling towards her and i will be so miserable. Keep thinking too much and making myself sad and down for the entire week. Try too hard to make it known w/o expressing it out verbally by caring and showing concern...in the end....remember i came across this phrase which i agree totally, "men express their feelings thru actions instead of words". well, that totally describes me.

Really miss her lor.....been so long since i last seen her( to be exact, ard 2 weeks onli lah). She agreed to meet me for clubbing wif few of my frens she knows last fri but on fri she msn me and say she got an appt and couldnt make it and that she wants to minimise clubbing cos of her coursework and job. Ok, its fine wif me. She said she would come for my debut performance at Safra Muchuan on sat nite and she even said she written it down on her organiser. But on sat, i sms her and she never replied. Thot she would come and was realli looking forward to seeing her but she didnt turn up even though i smsed her the exact location which of cos she nv replied. She never even called..... :( I was disappointed. Even though i enjoyed the experience of my first performance at muchuan but i feel that i will enjoy it more if she was there. After the performance, i smsed her again and again she nv reply. So i called her and asked her where she is. She said :" Devils, jus reached onli" which was ard 11 plus alrdy.(and she say she want to minimise clubbing).
"With who", i asked.
"Vive and a sec sch gal fren, u?", she claimed
"still at muchuan", i replied
"wah so late still there", she commented
"yup, going for supper wif the new frens from muchuan, u enjoy urself then", i said
"ok bye", she said and hung up.

well, i tried not to think about it so much but when someone u liked so much didnt even bother to reply ur sms, the feeling sux. On Fri, she msn me in office and ask me if i had replied her on the digicam question. I replied that she didnt asked me, and she asked me if i have a digicam which she could borrow for her brother to take some snapshots of his shop to be posted on web. i agreed intially but advice her on some things which i want to clarify. i asked her to be careful and take care of the cam cos my mum paid for the cam and i will be lending it to her without my mum's knowledge and she would have to return it asap after use to prevent my mum from finding out. As there was once my sis lend a cam to her fren and upon returning the cam was faulty and my mum made a big fuss out of it. As i dont wan things like that to happen as u know lah, it get very sensitive when it comes to money and stuff like this and cos i liked her so much, i dont wan things like this to happen. Then she said:" nvm lor, i also scared i spoilt it, its ok i can borrow from other frens". Am i wrong to make things so clear? Is she angry or upset that i brought that up? I dun know lah.....i even offer to help the brother take photo and send it over to her. can someone advice me if i'm wrong?? I realli like her alot lor and she jus ended a relationship. I understand she needs time and it realli hurt me when i hear or see her cry. But does she realise that i like her alot? i dont know? do i realli have to spell it out? isnt it obvious?? Can someone tell me wat to do.....missing her like fuck and been thinking of her so much that its realli going to ruin my life. Now i understand the meaning of " bei ai shi xing fu, ai ren shi tong ku".

Lastly on my debut performance at Muchuan Safra Town Club. It was realli rush lah the schedule, Ah Du, one of the singer there informed me of the performance onli on last wed's nite @ ard 11 plus and i was suppose to meet him for training the following nite after work. and i didnt even have time to search for lyrics of songs i want 2 sing, did a crash search and came out wif a few songs which i dont feel its enough. I was teamed up wif Ah Du who play the keyboard for us, a fellow female new singer( that nite was her second performance) called qiu qun, a nice guy who had been in muchuan for a couple of yrs who is suppose to do all the toking that nite cos we r new and would not realli know how to make the show interesting. his name is Jie Hao. Well, i did screwed up a few times and luckily theres not much audience present. onli a few tables occupied. I was having my vocal class from 6.30 to 7.30 that nite and the performance is like at 8. I rushed over w/o dinner and the worst thing is i didnt even have the chance to practice wif qiuqun. We sang three duets in total and was quite impressed wif the first two in fact. Ni zui zhen gui by Jackie Cheung and Gao Hue Jun, and Wu Ding by Jay chou and Landy. the last one which is suppose to be our finale song was a disaster cos ah du played it in a wierd kind of way and i couldnt realli catch up with the tune and key, and also cos of lack of practice wif qiuqun....but its all over. my overall feeling? I have a long way to go and so much to learn. Brought along my digicam hoping to capture a few pics of my debut performance but couldnt cos no one to do it for me while performing. but i did take a few after that. Qiuqun left early to catch a bus so miss a chance to take one wif her but nonetheless i can always take one wif her some other day bah. Went for supper with ah du, jie hao, qing shan(head waiter i guess) and alicia(Lady boss of Muchuan) and she was kind enuff to drive everyone back including me whose house is most out ot the way.....realli appreciated it... Really glad and feel so lucky to have a chance to experience all this. Guess life dun realli sux after all, u jus have to make it count ;)

Cheers,
Teddy