Eventful Saturday

It was really a saturday fully utilised, got invitation to a colleague's birthday chalet, qualified for the Mediacorp radio Subaru WRX challenge which took up half of the day already. Met up with KK and vive and eventually ganjie and bernard also.


me drawing ballot


this is the chap who helped me call in....Gaston AKA Boss

All thanks to Gaston, who helped me call in to the radio station to qualify for the WRX challenge, woke up at ard 6.30am on saturday morning as we have to reach Taka by 8am but its bullshit lah cos we went there and joined the wrong queue resulting in a long wait and by the time we registered, was already 8.30am. Went to macs at wisma for some breakfast and proceeded back for the second rd of queuing for the ballot. and finally at ard 10 plus, ballot commence and the lucky both of us got the ballot one after another.....you might say we/re lucky but i doubt so as the position i got was one of the killer spot. Right between the two rear tail lights which means that i can't even stand straight, kneel or sit. Can onli squat.

I smsed the whole world to announce the good news and also my manager to tell her i might not be able to come to work on monday. proceeded with the challengeand guess wat, got disqualified after jus 39 mins......well anyway i dun think i can last that long even if i held on cos my hand was already numb and shaking after 30 mins cos of the awkward position i was in. how i got disqualified? well the judges were really strict and i didnt want to hang on lah. got the first warning when the judge discovered that my whole palm other than the area below the thumb was on the car. Second warning after the judge saw that i was in a half squat position (one knee on the ground and i was doing it on and off since the beginning), and i was out when i was seen puttin my left hand which was suppose to be free on the ground( i was doing it since the beginning). Felt quite unfair as there was no rules against all that action and why did you wait 30 mins to see wat i've been doing all along? Didnt want to argue cos my palm was alreadynumb and i knew i wont be able to survive for two or three days even if i had hung on. So might as well dun waste time.

Smsed the whole world to broadcast the bad news.....nevertheless, got a goodie bag from subaru also so not quite bad which contains a mug, STI cap, Subaru polar bear soft toy. Even got cert to remind u of the time u hung on. haha and it was an amusing 39mins.

Went for lunch with gaston and his gf, my sis who came and support but in the end to no avail and also her fren. and went home after that to wash up and proceed to my colleague's birthday chalet which i was suppose to turn down if i had hung on in that WRX challenge. The worst thing is that i actually got on TV in the news. Few of my fren smsed me,"u siow ah? go and join the wrx challenge". haha damn fun.....good shit lah.



nothing much for the chalet, and after that proceeded to meet up with KK and vive at orchard cineleisure where vive was apparrently on a shopping spree. and after that proceeded to Rouge where vive's fren was working and got in for free. ganjie and bernard joined us in the middle of it and went to have my fortune told using tarot cards. was really impressed as the way the person described my character by looking at the cards i drawn was so accurate that it realli freak me out. And gave me some positive answer lor so and said that my rite one would appear ard 3 to 5 mths later....dun know real or not ah...haha......anyway onli time will tell lor. Reached home ard 3am after turning down supper with them. Wasnt really tired lah, jus that the music there was really loud and its super smoky and its all getting on my nerves.....wanted to be alone for the nite. and that ends my sat.....eventful rite? well, couldnt have been better lor.

Cheers,
Teddy

To swallow with luv........

To swallow,

there will never be another swallow like u, u are the one and onli. I will never ever accept your apologies as there was never meant to be an apology in our story. Remember deep in your heart the there is onli gratitude in our story, " thanks for being in my life, even though ur jus a passerby, i learnt a great deal bout life."

Please dont feel sorry and dun say u owe me a lot as i believe nobody owe anybody anything in this world unless there is an agreement by both party. And be assured that i will be ur guardian bear til end of time simply cos silly bear wants to thank swallow for all the wonderful frens that swallow had brought into bear's life and teaching bear the real facts of life. and bear dun ever want to hear swallow say sorry again.....ever....will always be by ur side. May you fly with grace and swift, dun forget that bear always by ur side, can find bear anytime if swallow need help. Bear will try best to help. Smile always, light up someone life like i've always yearn for.

Yours Forever,
luv,silly bear.

The Rainbow Swallow--------Letting go....

The rainbow swallow
By Teddy Teo

There’s a pet shop located just round the corner of my apartment block and everyday on my way to work, I never fail to pass by the shop where varieties of cute little things were sold. I never had the intention to own a pet so I never did notice or take a closer look into the shop before.

Then one fine day, while on the way to work as usual, something bright and colorful caught my eye when I passed by the pet shop. Curious, I took a closer look and a rainbow colored swallow appeared before my very eyes. I was amazed and fascinated by it beauty as I stared at it while it spread its wings displaying a wide array of colors and while still looking at it, I asked the shop owner whom without even finish hearing what I said, shouted rudely: “ no, that bird is not for sale”. Disappointed, I walked away with my eyes taking a last glance at the colorful creature.

Everyday when I go to and return from work, I would walk into the shop and look at the swallow and try to persuade the shop owner to sell me the swallow. But to my dismay, the answer was always negative. Hence I could only hope on and pray that someday the shop owner would change his mind. Day after day, the same routine would take place and day by day, I noticed that the color on the swallow was getting duller and duller, losing all its brightness and hue. It made me sad and I became more persistent as I can see in the swallow’s eye that it not happy encaged within metal sticks. And finally, one fine day, the shop owner who couldn’t stand me irritating him everyday any longer, agreed to my request.

I was overwhelmed and took the swallow home immediately, hoping to see its color recover to its original brightness. But to my disappointment, as days go by, nothing improved and finally one day, defying my sense of unwillingness, I set the swallow free. It flew out of the cage, stood on the window ledge and soon enough, its color recovered to almost what I had seen when I first saw it. And eventually after a few minutes, it took off into the blue sky.

Deep in my heart, I thought: Fly Swallow, Fly,
Fly to the sky so blue and high,
Were u meant to be mine?
If so, this wont be goodbye.

Tear drop trickled down as the thought come and go, I have to learn to let go. As, if things were meant to be mine, they will come back to me.


I was naive, to think that if i give my all, i would receive something. Naive, to think that wat goes ard, comes ard which was never the case. Y is that so? The world's never always fair or can i say its never fair? Although i never expect any returns of any kind, am still disappointed of how this world works. Although i cant confirm that she's attached, I've decided to let go. If this phrase," Let go, if things were meant to be yours, they will come back to u", is true, then i guess time will tell. I hope that i have grown, grown enuff to not repeat the same thing again as there is a limit of how much i can give and also, i found out that my patience wasn't really that everlasting. Although she never rejected me straight in the face, and i'm still open to any facts, there is no guarantee that i will accept wat i've long to receive, if things do come ard. As i've did it before, " hao mah bu chi hue tou chow", i will only look back but will never go backwards. As the feeling will be different by then.

Yan, i dont blame u, neither do i blame anyone. Instead, i like to thank u for enlightening me and letting me know the cruel facts of life. Life's never easy and certain things we have to learn to let go. I was naive and stupid, and i hope that i had grown up. Although i've let go, i am still clinging on to the least of hope.....waiting for the answer of whether u were, by any chance, meant to be mine.

Cheers,
Teddy

moving on

she's attached apparently, after all she had told me, but she did the rite thing. At least i had the least hope and if things dun turn out the way i want, i wont feel as hurt. Now i wish her all the best and xin fu but we're still frens rite?? And i wont want to lose her as a fren cos i got to know a lot of frens and even my ganjie thru her. Wat i can say is wo men you yuan wu fen bah......

Learnt my lesson in life and time to move on and learn more things. Have to learn to accept the fact that the world is not always fair and you might not get wat you want in life. Have to accept it as parts and parcel of life, and we must eventually learn to let go of things that are not meant to be yours.

I'll be fine.....actually i more or less got over it already and had been trying to live life to the fullest every day and looking forward to every new days. Hopefully things will go well til the end of the year which is reachin soon. So fast, another year will be written into the history book again and lets jus wish that next yr will be better.

long time no blog....

Its been awhile since i last blogged, cos got nothing much happening in this phase of my life. Semester had started for my studies of Advance Dip. in Business Admin with purpletrain, have to start reading up and doing assignments and stuff......then also everyday have to work....although work had tone down a lot nowadays but sometimes still have to manage unforseen last minute cock ups......

So boring.....how can i make my life a bit more interesting and fun?? looks like only music can brighten up my day.....morning have to listen to radio on the way to work, in office will always listen to MP3 on my laptop, have to listen to my creative MuVo on way home and of cos before i sleep, will have to listen to radio again. Maybe i'm someone whose afraid of being alone i guess, have to use music to make it seems like i'm not alone. its true, i will die if i'm left alone for too long.....i'm also somehow someone who likes attention, would feel good if someone notice me and look at me.....in watever way lah...good or bad but i enjoy being noticed, esp. from opp sex of cos.

i also have a craving for pretty faces, find it very refreshing to see nice and pretty faces ard. Like wat i mentioned before, seeing pretty faces brightens up one's day, esp. when i see a cheerful pretty face. Seriously, a smile can make a big difference on a person's look and face. A pretty face will not be that attractive when that person is not smiling compared to a pretty face with a big bright smile.

So Smile more frens, go out and brighten up people's day and brighten up urs too.

Cheers,
Teddy

practical world....

Its been two months straight that i have no schedule to perform in Muchuan liow.....so sad. That only means two things to me, 1. I can't Sing or my singing not up to standard, 2. they are jus trying to con ppl of money by having ppl to audition, take lessons and have their frens come support them to boost customer number and also marketing.

I dun know man, out of my five classmates who were in the same class as me in vocal class, two females are still being scheduled to sing and i can say one of the gals can't sing for god sake....and the other one can sing very well but dun realli know how to entertain the crowd....seen them in action and i'm not very impress. Well, i am not saying i'm good lah but at least out of the six of us in that batch, i performed before in public @ suntec and at least i make the effort to learn new songs lor. Maybe i'm not good enuff lah but they should at least email or call to inform me that i wont be scheduled to sing or perform anymore and tell me some excuse or reasons mah.....at least make ppl feel better rather than jus treat as if nothing had happened. At least we paid for the vocal lessons lor....and $120 per month is not exactly very cheap also lor.....

Well, at least i experienced it before lah and i did learn from all the lessons and stage performances and they are all precious memories and lessons in my life now. hmmm...maybe i should go to the ming ge chan ting @ marina sq, Ai Qing Hai, and try hor....maybe the ppl there will know how to appreciate me....haha....

no lah...jus joking lah....dun want to waste all the money again liow...this world very practical one....nothing comes free. But i'm still taking guitar lessons with muchuan lah nevertheless....now dun know whether should continue or not...

Cheers,
Teddy